Recently someone told me that I behave like two different people. At first I thought they were joking, but they actually seemed serious. I laughed for a while, obviously I know I'm one person, but it really got me thinking (as most things do, hehe). Do I act like different people?
I began trying to look at myself but not from my own eyes, the eyes of other people. People I've met in different circumstances and situations. Who do I look like in their eyes? Well obviously I realized there's really no way I can know for sure how different people see me, but then I can just try to see what part of me I have shown.
To some I'm smart, nice, and funny, to some I'm dumb. To some I am easy going, chatty, amiable, focused (surprised with this one honestly) and reliable.
To some I relate well with people, to some I'm shy and can't seem to communicate with people. To some I'm lazy. To some, thoughtful, and friendly. To some I don't seem like I care about people's feelings and I'm too blunt. To some I'm an overthinker, while to some I'm analytical,to some I am just that guy that likes to talk about football, to some I'm just that average chess player.
To some I'm that strong hearted guy, while to some (very few) I'm just a big sensitive baby. And then to some (even fewer) I'm just an epitome of evil and wickedness. To everyone I'm curious (that's one part of me that doesn't seem to hide no matter what). I realized that all of these sides that different people see all add up to form the big chunk that's me. Without these small parts that some only get to see a piece of I wouldn't be me.
Everyone has different sides of them, and they get to choose whether consciously or unconsciously what side of them they display to others depending on the scenario. It's normal.
Therefore I wouldn't say I was acting like a different person, rather I would say I was displaying more of myself to the person. As time goes on when you get closer to people they get to really know you and you get to really know them. It is a good thing because it helps you know whether they really connect with you or not and ultimately being with people you connect with will always be better than being with those you don't.
