The premise that we are able to create our life first I think that is subjective, I believe in a medium level in destiny so I understand and live with the idea that there are things that happen because they have to happen, they teach you and make you grow to be able to continue your way. Likewise, I suffer from anxiety and fears that are caused by the little control you can have in life and not knowing what is coming in the future, even an immediate future (it is why I said I believe in a medium level). Then I start thinking that decisions are the ones that let us live our life the way we want and desire and I realize that there exist cultures and religions where there are no ways to decide certain things, that is someone else who decides for you, in front of you and you can’t change it.

All these thoughts are connected to destiny, but another thing that I can get in common from them is that despite events or facts are scheduled and you would or have to live it, the only thing that you can control are your feelings and your own acts. What will you feel? What are you going to do with them?... It just depend on you and there is where you are able to create your life and you are able to live happy, unhappy, depressed, in love, with hate, or any other feeling. You are able to choose to live with your problems and feel defeated or you can choose to live with your problems and transcend.

After sitting down and putting all my thoughts in order, I’m grateful to be able to create my life, be happy and transcen my dark feelings and do the life I would like more to have.