My name is Manuel and I'm a 25 year old bearded baby who is still in the process of discovering himself and figuring out what to do with his life. I'm half-way through my architorture career, and lately I've been pondering whether I should start studying medicine instead, since I always wanted to be a veterinary.
Long story short, I'm currently stuck between "what I should be doing" and "what I want to be doing"
People may think that it's too late to be having this kind of doubts about my life. They may think that by the time you're 21 or so you're supposed to have graduated from college and have a job and be involved in a romantic relationship with plans of getting married and have kids (and by "people may think" I mean that I have been personally TOLD so. BY THE PEOPLE). Being at a cross roads this late into my 20s has gotten me frowned upon more times than I could care to count.
But the truth is I'm okay with not meeting your typical social (family) expectations. Because whether or not I'm having doubts about the path I should be walking, I feel confident that I'm gonna get there no matter what. I've learned that it doesn't matter if you feel stuck and don't know which way to go next, as long as you don't stop believing that you can go anywhere.
I know it may sound like I'm about to start life-couching you into believing you have the power to make anything possible, and that nothing will stop you if you firmly believe in that power... well, I'm not. All I'm saying is that I KNOW I can do anything I set my mind to because I want to believe I deserve to. I want to believe that I'm strong enough to achieve anything. That I have the potential to change things around me, and more importantly, within myself. That I have something special hidden inside that needs to be shared with the world, and looking for what that something is will take me everywhere I want to go. I know that as long as I don't loose that faith things will find their way of working out.
So a couple of weeks ago a good friend told me a about this gold mine of a website where you can sign up and gain popularity by just expressing yourself and your ideas. The way this friend talked about it made me realize something very important, something I didn't see clearly at first: You can have all the best ideas in the world and you can say the smartest words there are, but they will just amount to nothing if they don't fall into the right ears. So, in a way, like it or not, we're still bound to what people might expect from us. The trick, then, is to find the right people to tell your stories to.
In order to do that, I'll be stating what type of content I'm going to offer this site, so as not to make anyone uncomfortable and to avoid any misunderstandings as to what my intentions are. (which are good intentions like making new friends and such, I just love being dramatic about it)
So what kind of thoughts will I be sharing with you all?
I've actually been having all these crazy ideas lately in sudden moments of inspiration, only I've never been able to write them down before I forget about them later. I thought this could be the perfect place to put myself out there and let people know what's inside my head:
For starters, ideas like this dark mythology, modern day fantasy story I've been meaning to write about ever since last year. Set in a world where people can physically manifest their desires in the form of spirit-like creatures. These creatures fall into one of seven... races (?), and they can go from really evil really mean monsters to really pure and divine beings (similar to the ancient gods and demons they are descended from) or something like that...
Also I'd like to share with everyone the questions I have made and the answers I have reached through experiencing and still attempting to overcome the anxious life. In hopes that I can find people that can relate so we could share our answers with each other and help each other make our anxiety a little more bearable xD
I'll be posting pictures of everything that I think has good aesthetics and basically anything that gets my attention. That includes pictures of urban layouts, skylines, spaces with good lighting, my face and (why the hell not) my body.
I might or might not be posting NSFW content. Exclusively of myself. We're all creatures of flesh so it's a little tempting when a website allows you to be the hoe you always knew you were. Having said that, I'll DEFINITELY be posting hot stuff of my junk so consider yourselves warned.
As well as your typical witchcraft manual and a full step-by-step guide on how to talk to animals.
You may have noticed this, but English is not my mother language so there are bound to be some grammatical or syntax errors. I'll try to make myself as clear as possible but I still hope you bear with me for a while.
All NSFW content will be labelled under it's corresponding tags so rest assured you won't see anything you don't want to. (All pictures will be mine unless stated otherwise)
Any similarities with real life events are purely coincidental. If you feel alluded by the contents of my blog, please let me know so we can improve ourselves through our shared experiences.
With nothing more to add, here is another picture of myself from a few days ago depicting one of the top 10 behaviors to perform while feeling regular (a topic for another post)
