There is something that I have realized recently which brings me to a strange set of simultaneous conditions that have been an impairment to my personal growth.
Condition A: Just because I can grow, change and develop new systems, does not mean that those I work with will be able to or willing to do the same.
Condition B: It is because I have not admitted this fact, that I will not be able to grow.
It is a dichotomy, a near contradiction.
The problem does not lie with me and yet it does.
The problem is that I see a solution. I am not the only person who needs to see it to apply the solution. I need to admit that I am the one capable of growth and evolution and that the other person is not and unless I can admit that there is no future there, then there will be no growth nor evolution. No matter how hard I try.
Sounds pretty vague doesn't it? Good. It was meant that way.
I have realized a few things about myself and about my one-sided relationship with certain people and that I give them far too much credit and I am willing to do far too much work for what it is worth.
It has been unfair. To me. Which is also unfair to my family.
I need to stand up for myself. I need to not give a shit about those people and their feelings and their issues.
I did my part. I reached out. I put in the effort and now it is time to continue growing despite those obstacles.
This is a word of wisdom that I must now learn to master and once I do, I will teach it to my kids.
Thank you for reading this cryptic thought experiment.
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