It is not only because of what we eat and drink. It is not all caused by chemicals like transfat and palm fat, DNA and overpopulation but it is religion and civilization that changed us into the fakers we are.
Both are the source of our behavior, our unhappiness, the reason why we have low self-esteem, give up on ourselves or why we pretend we are a great person, brag but in reality die deep inside.
No matter what you think, I am not a great person.
I can dislike and who knows hate.
If I have very good reasons for it there is a small chance I forgive and if I never forget!
Do I care about me being like that?
No, I don't. I have my limits and borders and it is my good right to be angry or mad just like it is my good right to be sad, disappointed, be in pain.
This way of thinking did not come on its own. We say we feel more, pretend since ages we have more feelings and emotions as animals, the goldfish and... plants. We are higher on the ladder and rule. We are the king of everything. Everything except our own mind, our feelings and... emotions!
The more civilized human being becomes the more problems it has.
Drama queens we all are. Not able to face modern life, we suffer from stress and are close to a burn-out, children included.
I call these luxury problems. If you do not have to fight, struggle for your daily piece of bread, fight for a place close to the fire to keep yourself warm during the night, you have all the time to think and complain and fall over each tiny problem on your road.
Most of us suffer from something.
Terrible childhood, parents, marriage, being raised in poverty, Santa who did not fulfill the biggest wish, no Santa, no father, no friend, being adopted, no (dream) job, angry neighbors, a creepy uncle who cannot keep his hands to himself, a mean teacher, bullies, bad eyes, being deaf, the sun never shines, no visa into Paradise, being invisible, "it's complicated", discrimination or downvoted on Steem again.
As a civilized person, it is not allowed to ventilate.
It is forbidden to envy, hate and backstabs. Those things animals do. It helps them to learn a lesson, teaches them to be aware and how to survive but is taken away from us. We have to sit and pray and wait and hope for the moment we'll be saved. That savior will not show up if you don't fight back, don't teach a bully a lesson, change into a cry baby and deny your true feelings.
We have to pretend we don't care about our feelings, they don't matter.
We are civilized so we talk "like adults" about what bothers us or we write it down. For frustrated people, we have plenty of doctors, psychologists, shrinks, all kinds of therapy, yoga and meditation available. We can drink, eat, smoke, take meds as much as we like to feel better, to forgive but it doesn't help if we deny our true feelings.
Once in therapy always in therapy?
We keep pretending that "what does not break us makes us stronger" but the reality proves the opposite.
Once a hater always a hater?
I don't think so. A hater is no hypocrite. Hate is a very strong feeling and hate and revenge do not go necessary hand in hand. It can give you a superpower that you can use for your own benefit instead of feeling sorry for yourself.
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