Usually I'm quiet on here for a good reason aka turbulence and/or great distraction aka life taking over.
Saying that the last week and a half have been challenging is a bit of an understatement but hey, Clare and I are still there and doing our best to keep our heads up, no matter how dire and stressful the circumstances.
We have been feeling pretty uncomfortable in the building on our new land ( where we are trying to live full time, even though it's far from ready to live in ), but felt even worse in our rental house ( which was meant to help us get through the Winter months in a more gentle way ).
And, as per usual, we struggled with the change in energy caused by an overnight, 24 hour stay in Clare's old house ( that we left in July and would love to sell to the right person, sooner rather than later ).
I wrote the above 4 days ago and didn't manage to finish my writing...
In fact, I hardly seem to be able to put my thoughts on the metaphorical paper, these days.
There is just so much going on and it's f***ing hard.
No matter how many beautiful moments there are throughout the day, saying it is easy and we are doing great would be a blatant lie.
It's hard!
Especially when it's cold, wet and dark.
For those of you who aren't aware of our situation, 
It is mostly waterproof but not entirely. The building isn't insulated and very much unfinished.
As mentioned above, our rental house - that was supposed to make our life easier - didn't serve its purpose so we felt forced to be on our land, full time, even though it's Winter.
We don't have a shower, not even a bathroom ( the garden is our bathroom, 1.1 hectare of land to 'water' and 'fertilize' ) and the only 'electricity' we have is a power bank that charges a couple of devices for a handful of hours.
The days are short and there are very few hours of daylight.
Comunque/anyhow, I felt like getting this out of my system. I don't need any advice. Clare and I will figure this out ourselves, by trial and error. We are highly intelligent, creative and intuitive.
At least we still have the other house to go to ( a 2.5 hours drive to the South of here ).
By now it is pretty empty, after almost have a year of getting car loads of stuff out of it but luckily there is still a bed, a couch, just enough kitchen equipment to cook a basic meal with and most importantly a wood stove/-oven that also works as a water heater. Plus - even more important - there is a shower and a bath.
It is also a bit warmer in that region of Italy, plus the house itself is warmer, drier, lighter and more spaceous.
Long story short, we will probably go back there, in a couple of days, to spend a bit more time in a more comfy place and, hopefully, raise our spirits.
It is likely that we will be there at the changing of the year, something I wouldn't have expected when we left the city where Clare lived for about 15 years, almost half a year ago
I hope that - wherever you are located - you are a bit more comfortable than us and wish you a beautiful end of the year!
Sending love from Molise, Italia.
Further reading, from Clare's perspective here: @clareartista/the-only-way-is-up
