I cannot sleep.
I came back from the office because the Internet connection went dead. There can be a whole host of problems.
Either my LAN connection was bad, my computer has a problem or something just stopped access to my computer altogether. I do not want to freak myself out for nothing.
Anyway...
I came back home and thought that coming back home was the best option there was. I'm supposed to reset my sleep this week, going to bed at 9 PM and waking up at 5 AM. I'll do that on Tuesday.
It is already 1 AM.
I don't think I will sleep 4 hours and wake up? Really?
Life can go in a million directions right now. I just need to work through the night at home, go to the office tomorrow when it reopens at 8 AM. I think that's my best course of action.
There is going to be a Twitch Donut Party this coming Christmas Eve. Details will slowly be provided to those that are going to attend. We will be having all kind of foods that have holes in them. Polo candy, donuts, onion rings.... we'll keep finding more stuff to put on the list.
More surprises can happen and I hope that we can make this party that all will enjoy and have the most fun ever in 2020.
Next week is Malaysia's birthday. I was hoping that on that very day, we will also be free of the COVID19.
That life will be back to normal.
But then it is very unlikely that is going to happen now. Throughout the weekend, I have heard of many things that will scare the living daylights out of many. I went to sleep that morning after hearing all these things and slept 24 hours.
I wish I knew the truth about a lot of things.
I wish I knew how this whole earning money thing works too. I just have to keep learning how to grow and find ways to do what I do to make a good living.
I know that a lot of people are out of the job and I am too. I tried applying for jobs earlier before the COVID19 happened. But I could not get any interviews at all. Now with the COVID19 happening, it is even worse.
At first, I was thinking that I should not get any work that is not related to my interests. But at this moment in time, I should just accept any work that comes my way.
I don't think I will be able to sleep tonight.
So I'll just get as much work as possible done. Go to the office tomorrow to put in some more work. Yes, I am still trying to make my own gig work. But if it doesn't work out, I'll just go back for full-time employment.
I will do what I need to do right now and pray that the Gods are on my side to help me in what I am trying to do. I have far too many hallucinations for my own good.
I have to start accepting reality and stop dreaming.
Amen.
