I definitely need a reboot... Fatigue is accumulating. This is not a good physical fatigue that can be felt after a long walk or work in the garden. I love such fatigue and it always cheers me up. But that's not the case now. Emotional fatigue accumulates and it cannot be defeated by a good sleep. To be honest, I don't sleep well.
Something definitely needs to be done about it. I can't go somewhere to rest. And I don't want to. I just don't have that much energy. But the problem is growing and prevents me not only from living normally, but also from working. It looks like my quality of life is going to hell.
The biggest problem is anxiety. It's not that healthy fear, which is a reaction to a real threat and thus makes us more cautious. Anxiety is a disgusting state. As to my taste. It is irrational, so there can be no adequate response to it. I've been trying to ignore it for a long time, but now I seem ready to give up. Probably we should visit a doctor and consult what can be done about it.
And it's spring around... And that's the positive thing we have. The problem of cold has been left far behind, and at least six months of heat is ahead. My visit to the therapist will take place in two weeks. In the meantime, I'm fighting depression and anxiety with the help of nature. The hardest thing is to force yourself to leave the house. But I've never regretted it yet. Now I have to catch the moment, because the spring rains are frequent to visit us. My plants are happy about it, but I'm not happy. However, rainy weather is a great reason to wrap yourself in a blanket with a cup of hot tea and a good book.
These photos were taken in a place called the Old Pond, my favorite place for rest and meditation.
