During my Artistic recovery I'm forced to deal with issues from my childhood. Today it occurred to me that I spent at least 5 years of my adolescent life being a home attendant to some jerk my aunt decided to marry, without pay and barely ever getting allowance. Yet at every turn my birthday gifts and Christmas gifts were being taken away.... geeze. I could see if the guy was a nice person but I remember being ridiculed for having feminine tendencies even being overweight for a while. Mind you the only male I saw consistently was in a wheel chair and didn't really represent anything masculine. Everyone else was a woman and my aunt and mother showed me what strength was. Also, I was overweight because I wasn't allowed to leave the table until my food was finished. Sigh. Good thing I'm dealing with this stuff now before I have children. And the bright side is, I'm recovering.