From 2010 until 2020 is an entirely different picture for me. In 2010, I had no chronic pain conditions and I was working 2 jobs at once. I had a beautiful apartment in the city that had windows from the floor to the ceiling across my living room and bedroom walls. A balcony that took up the same space and allowed me to always be looking over the city and nearby park. All of my bills were being paid and I had extra money to spend on myself or my amazing apartment. I ate well and socialized with people I never imagined I would. I was, what I would call, successful.
My followers know where I am now, but for those who are new here, let's just say I'm nowhere near that now. I have multiple chronic pain conditions taking over my body and have spent almost the past 3 years fighting CRPS- Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. The highest rated pain condition to date (higher than childbirth, amputation of digit and anything else you can think of) and there is no cure. The wind or my own breath can literally feel like a cut or shocks. I should be miserable and defeated in the corner.
BUT I AM NOT.
I am shooting for the moon still. Even with my limitations taking over. I'm focusing on who I am and where I came from.
My father is a botanist and one of the wisest souls I know. His respect and knowledge of nature and the forces of it, are inspiring for me. I absorb like a sponge and want to know everything that he does, because it has been a part of my life since childhood and it's in my blood. My step father has been around since I was younger and prior to his strokes, he was always operating his own businesses and worked his butt off. I remember when we lived in Florida, every week day he would leave at 2am and come home at 8pm for supper and sleep before doing it all again. We would spend weekends with him working on growing the business together handing out flyers in the neighborhood or putting Christmas cards in envelopes for the customers. That is also a giant part of my life and wiring. My mother was the glue that held it all together. Bookkeeping, accounting, receptionist, business management, plus she took care of me and my sister and the house keeping. All of that is embedded in my brain and blood.
So, with my physical limitations kicking my ass, but all of this boiling in my blood, what is a #Spoonie to do?
"Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars" -Norman Vincent Peale
My Etsy shop will be open HOPEFULLY 11/22. I am hoping to earn enough on Swagbucks (https://www.swagbucks.com/refer/HippieRays) and InstaGC (https://www.instagc.com/2450170) to cash out with a bit of PayPal to go with my Amazon orders for Christmas. Paypal is going to help me with supplies and fees to make all of this happen. Swagbucks and IGC help, but so can you if you want to:
https://www.paypal.me/sewearthycreations
Every penny counts ❤️
Other magnificent things are in the works for early to mid 2020 as well. More details coming soon :) ❤️
Make today a great day with positive thinking and be kind to your mind everyone.
Positive thoughts,
-Kristen Sparkle
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