i recently had a need to get some medical attention. it’s all i could focus on and it was a wake up call i had to present and correct for. i needed to stop, drop and roll.. . ok maybe not the drop and roll part but i had to stop and take stock of where i was at — i needed the docs and i needed a complete body check out.
in all of this there was overwhelming sense of relationships and commitments owed (mentally and i guess financially to other people) to make square with people, to set others up for a future that did not have me in it — to leave some level of legacy past the videos and the passive income streams that would keep dumping funds into accounts ai macro repeating vibe style.
i’ve upped the walking, i’d turned down the salt input, i’ve hit the fibre and the grains and the proteins, i’ve got the most fucking radical bulletproof motherfucking shaker thing to get into that’s double walled and keeps shit cold.
as i sat, bathed in sunshine this morning i was incredibly thankful for what my life was, like i was rejoicing in it. meditation state after my walk, the calm covered over me like a light blanket of protection from the world and it’s white noise. if the universe had decided to take me in that moment i would have been in peace and in a cascade of bliss.
see i’d forgot to put health front and centre.
i was fuelling on the daily basis and just throwing myself at the world every morning, got into a routine, not often healthy, certainly not tracking my consumption patterns or blocking out periods of time dedicated to flipping that food energy into day to day focus and power — it was just fuel and i had nobody at the delivery entrance checking the ratios!
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i don’t really like bothering systems, it’s like waking the beast, i know they are overloaded anyway, i saw a tiktok the other night were they had 174 (i think) people in A&E and it was probably gonna take 7.5 hours to clear that backlog, they were updating people that it would probably be morning before anyone got seen too. After pandemic, they are just overloaded.
it’s not that i don’t wanna bother them as much as get wrapped up the pace and speed that these things run at normally although i will say now i’ve got a lot of stuff automated in terms of delivery of medications the flow of adding new stuff direct to supplier is pretty damn sweet, even if they are waiting on resupply and gas right now for one of the products (co2 and gas i think is a bit of an issue still here in the uk)
so right now, it’s plenty of walks, some new medicine, really honing in on the foods, how they react and such like. I’m thankful to have been what feels another chance to course correct and get things back in order. We can just cascade forward thinking bigger, faster more and more when really when we truly look around we have everything we need already.
the energy release is just immense, change your environment when it does not serve you, but also when it does not serve others. Don’t hold hostage someone else’s brain cycles because you just cannot spin up yours, you’ll just cause a longer term problem. stop, recognise the problem and course correct, if it’s done right within a few weeks you’ll feel a massive release.
our bodies are straight up engines, you can’t keep on putting in shit fuel, shit oil and expect it to run with performance. things just don’t operate like that, you lost a little bit of efficiency each time until your left with an engine so caked up in gunk that it needs a complete rebuild — that takes time when really you could have just been doing full engine block cleanses along the way.
take the time to put health first
humble x
