I don't know what is with me today, but I have to say that inlike most of the time where I am generally indifferent to life, I am annoyed. There is no particular reason for it, but when it comes to moods, there really doesn't need to be, as our feelings don't really give a crap about reality, they just care about themselves.
If we actually "listen to our feelings" we'd find they are illogical, needy and attention seeking - much like a high-maintenance partner that wants you to make them the center of your life, no matter what kind of sacrifices you have to make to do so. They want to be loved, but offer very little in return and if allowed free-reign, will suffocate their host.
Sounds awesome.
Yet, a lot of people seem to believe that they have some preordained right to inflict others with every emotion they have and these kinds of people, tend to have more bad days than good. There are others who expect their emotional needs to "be fulfilled" but over nothing in return as payment. And there are some who think emotional control means bottling up feelings and burying them deep down in the darkness.
In my opinion and as I handle them, emotions are tools, which means we can learn about them and how to use them. Knowing when to show and apply them and when to keep them in the emotional toolbox takes practice and depending on other factors, our ability to handle them varies. For example when we are tired, under stress or have unexpected circumstances arise, it is harder to get a grip on our emotions and we can end up using the wrong tool for the job, or become heavy-handed in our approach, unintentionally breaking things along the way.
Intentions matter of course, but when people unintentionally hurt others due to a lack of emotional awareness, there was still intention there. The intention was to never learn how to control emotions well, so it is like constantly getting behind the wheel of a car drunk, and believing that when crashes happen and people die, it is not our fault. It is a choice not to take responsibility for our actions and believe it or not, our emotional reactions are indeed our actions. Just because we have chosen not to learn how to use handle them, doesn't mean that it excuses our behavior.
Too many these days throw tantrums like children denied a toy in a store, and expect to have their desires fulfilled because they really, really want it. Some people might even act as an enabler and give in and act as, they would rather avoid the discomfort or embarrassment of the screaming child - I don't play that. I don't accept it from my daughter, why would I accept it from an adult?
But, it is not like I am emotionless myself, it is just that at least most of the time I try not to let it affect the things I need or want to do. I know a lot of people who have things to do and things they want but, "aren't in the mood" to to anything about it, so wait for better times. This is a spiral into oblivion in my opinion, as the more it happens, the more it will and soon, they aren't doing much of anything at all, because it is all just too hard.
While I don't feel like this often, I tend to use these moods to explore other aspects of myself through my writing. This piece for example, I went in first reflecting on my mental position with the thought to se where it will lead me in content and, how I feel as I come out the other side.
I feel better. Much better.
So now, I can get on with the rest of my night in a mood that is more suited to the lighting of our fireplace for the first time this Autumn and, for the first time since the renovation of this area was completed - rather than ruining the moment. As I keep saying, emotions are tools. Learning how they work and how to use them, can make a very big difference in the way we experience our world and, the world of those who experience it with us.
Taraz
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