I was in the bathroom at work today and saw this emergency/ help button. While it is a bright, red button in what is otherwise white setting, the icon doesn't really scream what it is for. If anything, it just looks like if you press it, a menacing robot that has the destruction of humanity in its program, is coming to get you while on the toilet.
Not a good way to go.
But interesting.
While we have a lot going on, tomorrow I scheduled a review for my 2023 Q4 bonuses. After the last couple weeks, I could really do with getting the full bonus to replenish the tiny buffer we had. The heating company's insurance is apparently going to be dragging its feet on paying us for what we have covered so far. That is par for the course. Though, it isn't really going to help, as I won't get the bonus paid until February anyway.
Perhaps I should have pressed the red button.
It isn't that dire.
Plus, I get paid at the end of the week and will be able to cover the bills then, albeit that some of them will be a little lat. Or a lot. I don't like this situation, because it reminds me of so many other times in my life where it was far more stressful., with one income, employment instability, and obligations to meet. But, I do think that those times taught me some lessons that I will carry for life, for better or worse.
Not all lessons are good.
Some of the negatives lessons we learn as children stay with us, and we spend the rest of our lives either trying to shake them, or being damaged by them. Often, we spend a lot of our time and energy trying to overcome what perhaps we should never have learned in the first place. One of these for me is a scarcity mindset, which I have carried around for as long as I can remember, and while I can repress it, it is always lurking in the background. Any time I am a little bit short of money, it rears its ugly head to remind me that I might never see another dollar again.
Emotions are irrational.
Emotions are not meant to guide us in my opinion, they are designed to grab our attention, and spend it more wisely. They are a warning and reminder to snap out of whatever daydream we might be having, and become present. Fear might be a signal of potential danger, pleasure says to enjoy what is at hand. I think we get the order of feelings confused, where we have been told to do things so we feel something, when it is the opposite,
Feel things so we do something.
If life is all about feelings, and a good life is one where we feel good, we can create a good life artificially with drugs, or perhaps some kind of electrical brain stimulation. We needn't move, we needn't act. All we need do, is feel.
Dystopic.
Is it a good way to go?
We seem to be heading in that direction, where we are acting less, but feeling more. We are quick to emotional rise, even if we aren't doing anything, just observing the movement of life as it passes us by through our various feeds. It is strange isn't it, that while we watch a movie and with suspended disbelief, we scroll though engineered feeds, as if they are real. Just look at how people are duped into sending money to 3D models.
Whacking off to something that doesn't even exist.
We live in a strange and sad world.
As long as it feels good, right?
I wonder if there will come a time in our lives where we wake up from this dream world we have created, realize we are lost, and press the button in the hope someone will find us. I think that there is potential for some to become aware, but I reckon the majority of us will live out our days in a fog of disreality, believing that we are living a good life, because it feels like it.
Looks are deceiving.
Feelings more so.
Taraz
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