The More I Think, the Less I Live

The other day I read a post from @beelzael Out of it. It talks about battling with bad habits, struggling to have self-control and being accountable with changing our bad habits. That resonates with something I am writing lately, the idea of removing friction and tiny stressor in our life to build habits we wanted to. Recently, I have a few goals to get into and sometimes it requires me to break the walls I've build many years as well as doing my best to remove stressors and the friction.

While sometimes it's good to be a reflective person, it created too much " what if" situation in my head. That what if, created a lot of delayed sense of action and soon those actions become something scary. For instance, it is as scary as having a health check-up and going to the doctor. In my mind, those are like free falling from the sky without a parachute and not knowing whether I'd survive or pass.

It took me 10 years of learning to remove the voices of people around me who attempts to complicate every decision or action I make in my life. The less I listen to them, the easier it gets for me to do many things. It's also like training our muscle especially if you're chronically reflective.

Sometimes you just have to skydive and without a care in the world whether you'd survive or pass.

When I slowly do things without a care in the world, I have ticked a lot of boxes that I used to think was scary. While that sounds reckless, that just how life can be sometimes, there are moments in life where you just need to jump and do it. We can think about the rest later and if we ended up passing ( not in literal sense), then that's about it. Even if it was the actual sense, then that's about it.

The more we allow people to seep into our live and cloud our judgement, that becomes our own chain that stops us. So, nowadays if I need to do something, I just do it, I'll think about the rest later. The more I think, the more I halt the action and the less likely I do it.

Some people in our life can also be enablers to our bad habit. The more we distance ourselves from them, it's easy to be a changed person. I do recognize if they are a family member it would be challenging and I struggled with it too. But again, you have to be firm with them, see the pattern, outsmart the game they are playing and you'll win.

Even the moment I am writing this, I am sitting down thinking about how to win this game that I got myself into. I basically skydived myself and survive but getting into the game where I deal with another smothering mother who control us through money and getting into even worse toxic environment. So, will I survive this time? We'll see but I am definitely working my way to find another exit door.