Namaste people,
I talked about physical health yesterday but I missed to discuss the most important parameter which is left unattainted by me, that is smoking.
BELIEFS
I started smoking from the year 2019, and I always knew from start that if this bad habit is accepted by me, It would be tough to quit as it's easily accessible and it's after effect never get indulged with regular schedule.
And eventually after 5 years I can surely say that, this is a bad addiction to get indulged into. I've been trying from 3 years to quit and to this day there's no progress.
CURRENT SITUATION
The mental situation is, I know I can quit and it's no big deal but the fact that cigarettes have nicotine in it and for a minute or two it relaxes the mind. I'm working in a sector where I've to make my mind work at a rapid speed and with all possible know solution for a defined problem, just like when you search on Google for a problem and Google gives all the possible solution in one search. Also it's a customer oriented job and you can never know in which mood the customer is coming and that does takes alot of strength to not respond in the same tone as the customer.
HISTORY
This started when I was in 3rd year of college and my father had recently passed, he dearly believed in the fact that one should always live their life to fullest and that does not included getting wasted but a teenage version included that as well. I'm a calculator and I always previously calculated every action and it's diverse effect, and all my calculation said no to smoking from start but on a vulnerable day I couldn't hold it back and too this day I regret the fact that, if or maybe I stayed strong that day I would not be in a horrible situation currently.
AFTER EFFECTS
Their is uncountable health hazard related to my smoking problem and on daily basis I've acidity, headaches, loosing diet, stomach ache, dental issue, loosing strength and comparatively weak.
Mental issue is, constant unfit to stay with any family member as they couldn't know about it and I can't live without it.
Financial loss is cigarette are not very expensive but yes, it does make me spend, a few bucks in air and I could be doing something more productive with it. Last year I calculated, I spent around 90k on cigarette and that's a pretty good sum to save or to spent on diet.
Anyways, I've given a thought about it and decided to quit smoking with the help of meditation and going out on treks and also hanging out with positive people meaning not with colleagues.
