Fragmentation
Carefully, with care, I divide myself into parts.
Slowly with surgical precision I separate the particles.
The pain is overwhelming.
I cut the parts into smaller and smaller pieces.
My precision surrenders to fear.
The knife of my concentration dulls the blade on the daily routine.
Parts become uneven, their edges jagged.
More and more crumbs, shreds, wastelands emerge.
I am shrinking
I am crumbling
I disintegrate.
Do straight paths always lead to dead ends?
When I was a child the days seemed long, now they seem last for only a blink of an eye. If I don't plan my time very carefully - the things I want to do 'now' – I manage to get done after a month.
I sacrifice sleep to snatch those few more minutes for myself.
The desire to seize time for myself hardly ever leaves me. I want to stretch time indefinitely. When my body refuses to obey me (illness, migraine, etc.), I am furious, because I have again wasted time that could have been spent on something 'worthwhile'.
Valuing time
How do you value your time? Do you use trendy terms like Quality Time? Beat the clock? A stitch in time saves nine? Working around the clock? Time is on my side...
I always shy away from an arbitrary understanding of words. That's why I like poetry.
We talk about time all the time. It's probably the most abstract concept that is so tightly stitched into our everyday life. We feel its passage, we see it in the mirror, we feel it in the air.
How often we say:
I waste time
I take up time
I find time
Need time
Kill time
When the most beautiful of all phrases is:
I have time
I have time for you.
I have time to think about it.
I have time to listen to you.
About drawing
Quite often I allow myself the nonchalance of not planning my drawings. Since I haven't had much time for this kind of exercise lately - I decided not to put myself under pressure to draw intentionally. Whatever came up in my head – will appear on the paper. Today, I leave the interpretation entirely up to you, my dears:)
Scroll Of Time
I bought a roll of drawing paper some time ago. But! the idea of what to do with it was simmering in my head for quite a long time. Plus it's quite risky considering how clumsy I am.
I have the best intentions to cover this roll of paper with drawings from start to finish. One looooong drawing. I've already torn a section of the paper drawing the first 'scene', but oh well... it's worth a try, right?
Keep your fingers crossed for me:)
P.S.
You thought you were rid of me? Ha! Not gonna happen!(jet!)
I can't promise to bore you with my nonsense every day, but I'm slowly managing to scrape together some free time to pick up a pencil or tap away at the keyboard for a few minutes. I hope my willpower remains strong:)
I have missed you! How life treats you?
I wish you all a lovely week,
Strega Azure
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