A few months ago I was living in a house that was completely destroyed. The washing machine flooded the furnace room every day, most of the windows were broken and the holes were covered with cardboard. The kitchen sink had a garden hose instead of a faucet, and all of the walls were covered in drawings and writing. The rent was not paid in 3 months, we risked getting evicted 24/7. I had no income, and not a speck of motivation to find a job and work. Riddled with worry about getting arrested because I had warrants, a 24/7 risk of homelessness in the middle of winter, and none of my family trusted me at all. I left the day the electricity got shut off.
I got blessed with a friend that I met through a guy that was living in the house with me. We ended up having a ton in common, and he wanted to help me get out of the slums, and get on my feet. This event was life-changing, but let me get on with the post.
A few major changes happened, I'm still not perfect, but I completely turned my life around as a result of a simple personality change. I started helping others and being selfless instead of selfish. I became grateful for what I had and started putting up with situations I didn’t care for but had no control over. The biggest change was that I corrected my negative thoughts, and speech whenever I noticed it going on. I labeled myself Anti-social before this, thinking how much I hate people, but it just wasn’t true. I realized, I did enjoy social interaction, I just didn’t like the reactions I got due to my terribly flawed way of socializing 😁. I was a huge complainer, and extremely negative. I pushed others away because my mood brought theirs down too. After a couple of months of work, I think completely differently than I did. I still have to correct myself from time to time, but I'm a different person entirely.
I had these things pointed out to me over the years, and I ignored it all several times. I started moving away from the degenerate lifestyle and started listening to others. I started to slowly make the changes above, over the course of 2 ½ to 3 months. I was still drinking a bit, and dabbling in drugs here and there, mostly just weed, but it was nothing compared to before. I stopped drinking completely one day because I was tired of waking up feeling like shit every day. I finally came to a decision on the warrants ordeal. I turned myself in, went to rehab. I instantly started making the progress mentally that I needed to turn my life around.
Life changes so fast, we have no way of knowing what's around the corner. For one, Hive has great potential to hit mainstream popularity & use. If Hive hits some crazy number, we will be good for life financially, probably still Hive blogging, and laughing at the way things turned out.
I have been feeling great lately. Today is officially 1 month sober, as my clean date is 2/26/2022! I currently am having a wonderful day, sober, listening to Longmont Potion Castle(crazy prank call albums), with the windows open, capturing the essence of rain in my room, enjoying the sweet refreshing sound and smell. It’s been a long while since I have felt this comfortable, content, without drugs, or even a little weed. I am in comfy town right now.
I have spent most of the day watching true crime videos on Youtube, then diving into strange Youtube and google searches as a result of my memory coming back, and I can finally recall things again. I did 3 hours of training at my new job(Pizza place) and it went great, the job is super easy, and I seem to have everything going for me right now(usually disaster follows right about now). I am now finishing up this blog and playing Splinterlands. A buddy from The Terminal Discord helped me with some Dark Energy Crystals so I could start renting cards.
Thanks for reading! Here is a picture of the cactus my mother got me :). Please vote, comment, and reblog. Have a wonderful day my friends!
