God bless the day I came across steemit. I heard about steemit by chance and I will always thank God for that day and opportunity to know about.
I'm a kinda person that loves making money online. I've been so focus about making good that I feel I can't be happy with money. I neglected other areas of my life and started competing with others.
I've been scammed several times, I lost so much that I lost my identity in the process. I lost all confidence in myself and I saw myself as an unfortunate being because I looks like everything I touched fails until I joined steemit.
I joined this great community around July but it was like I had no purpose, I couldn't find d the willpower to be creative enough because my confidence was rock bottom. There were even times Cheetah visited my blog. But something changed some days ago and I've been getting my confidence back.
I could remember there were days I won't be able to sleep well and even when I sleep I always wakeup tired like I never slept.
There were days I will feel so reluctant to go get out of bed because I was depressed. Things were not working out well, everyone around me including my younger siblings were moving forward and I was stagnant. I've really tried my best to do well. I was more hard working but I wasn't getting any result I'm still not completely sure why but I'm determined to get better and work hard at moving ahead.
I've read so many post recently on this platform and I'm getting motivated and I feel more better by the day. I've decided to put off the mask so I can get help. I need to be who I use to be. I need to dream again and pursue my dream, I need to be happy, I need to move forward, I need to regain my confidence and be creative again. I need to be better than who I was yesterday.
My only competition is with myself.
I wanted to quit before but I'm not a quitter and I know I'm not a failure until I stop trying and there's no way I'm quitting because this platform (steemit community) has given me hope to live again and I know I will live.
I know I'm better than this and my best is yet to come.
Thank you for reading.
