Lately, I’ve been struggling with my focus and I’m pretty sure it’s my thyroid medication half wrong. But it takes time to balance so I can test and re-adjust. It was fine until a few years ago when I started treatment for my stomach. The frequency of treatment was then changed several times. Which interrupted the way my body was working and I really didn’t get any status points again. Now though, I can really feel what my lack of attention span is and I am constantly struggling to find words. The thought itself is uncomfortable and it’s like trying to solve a math problem when it’s kind of drunk and I wasn’t good at math to get started. And patience when a virtue. But I get thinner very quickly.
If I could describe it, it would feel like having this kind of Alzheimer’s and being very aware of the degeneration. Even basic thoughts are reminded regularly by working hard to get them out. Before I was diagnosed and treated, for ten years I drowned around the world with poor thinking, very little inspiration, always extremely tired and quite uninterested in the world. I feel like it’s moving backwards and something needs to be done quickly for that. Although it takes a few months.
It reminded me of a story I was thinking about (with difficulty) and the potential differences and heard about the Australian cricket team in the 80s and 90s. When they were quite influential in the sport. A cricket game is quite long (several days). But every day is long. What they did to keep themselves sharp was not given attention when they didn’t need to. But when they did, they focused very hard. They realized that a person only has about 30 minutes or more of pure attention a day and once frustrated. It goes away. So, they trained the players to focus for a few seconds while playing in the ball (you don’t need to understand). But don’t pay attention when they were out of the game. This means they can preserve their focus throughout the day when it was important throughout life. The rest of the time. They were literally just distorting or talking nonsense that required very little attention.
What I was thinking was where the average person nowadays focuses their attention and I think in most cases our best attention is given to those issues. Which, of course, made the video an overnight sensation. For example, the Twitter argument you involved yesterday or made with that level of the game. How valuable is it to your life? Pay attention to these issues, but what is the benefit of investing?
I was talking to a friend about how I should spend more time on human reflection. They need to develop themselves and learn about the things that really affect their lives - money, sensitive control and building deep relationships, and when he agreed he said most people don't have time for Don. However, I think most people don’t pay attention. Because they spend their attention irrelevantly, leaving nothing in the tank for the important. Imagine how people pay attention to current events and get the perfect angle for a selfie and become smarter on Twitter for some hearts.
When we feel that what we are doing in the moment is valuable and worthy of our attention. But is this the best use of a more limited organization than our time? I wonder if our personal results will change significantly. If 30 minutes of pure attention a day is placed on something that further enhances our personal evolution and other attention clients focus only on the second and third quality.
With all my cognitive abilities now second and third quality, the way I use it and the days of long training are getting harder and harder. I have to be quite careful about that. Even writing at the moment is sometimes laborious. But I use it as a way to relax my mind and I enjoy the “challenge” to see what comes from me. Since I was able to use it as a challenge. Yet I was able to maintain the flow most of the time. Which means my pure attention gets a rest. Because the state of flow carries me to the river of thought. However, I get tired a lot of the time and never feel rested.
Next week I think I will go and check thyroid function and then find out where I need to be dose wise to find balance. But even then it takes a little experimentation and, as mentioned, a few months to adjust and align. However, a googly thing about this is that it has become a good reminder to pay attention to what my body is doing and not to give it dignity. I think we need to create what we have done for everything we do in life and we often feel that we will always have the resources we have. Until we do.
The average person will one day look in the mirror and see themselves with reduced ability and have very little chance of affecting the rest of their lives. Although it is never too late to wake up and concentrate on what is really important. But it is better to be a recipient initially and pay attention now.
