Time to get a little personal here... This has been building for a while and I feel like I'm on the brink of big changes. Not sure what they are. Not sure how to start the snowball a'rolling. Maybe you can help? I'd be grateful to hear perspectives from you Steemians, especially coming from other countries, cultures, and ages.
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I am also blessed to have an unconditionally loving family, most of whom live right here in Arizona. (I do miss my sis, though. She's in DC for grad school.) No matter what happens, I know they'd be there for me.
Though they boast "unlimited," it's not really unlimited—they give you two weeks each year and start raising eyebrows if you want more than that.
As you can see, I have many things to be thankful for. I try my best to focus on the good instead of the bad, but there are some areas of pretty significant discontentment which have been leaving my heart bothered for quite a while now.
During the time that I was dealing with AFS, I discovered food allergies/intolerances to gluten, animal products, peanuts, and soy. Since then, I've also become allergic to onions, peas, and sesame seeds, then (more recently) high-nickel foods—that's the longest list of all of them. You can read more about that in this post.
Right now, I'm eating about a dozen low-nickel foods. If I stray from those, I face the most extreme eczema on my hands you can possibly imagine. (Refer to my Systemic Nickel Allergy Syndrome post to see pics at your own risk.) It will eventually look like I have a flesh-eating disease...gross, I know. And painful af. :( Thankfully, I've started the healing process via the guidance of a naturopathic doctor.
I'm sure it's pretty obvious why this is a "pain point" in my life right now. Eating the same damn meal, three times a damn day... Never getting to go out to eat... Constantly dealing with reactions to food... (Did I mention it also appears as cystic acne on my face? Looks like I'm a fucking hormonal teenager, ugh.) You get the point.
It also makes me feel like being in the U.S. with all the fucked up GMO foods, artificial ingredients everywhere you turn, bleached & fluoride-infused water, stressful/demanding day-to-day lifestyle, and well, everyone in the world knows the political situation—not getting into that though—it's just not a good place for my body to ever recover from these issues.
Case in point: when I was in Amsterdam for SteemFest, I ate a pineapple curry that should have had no onions (since I'm allergic), but it did. I didn't have a trace of an allergic reaction...making me wonder if I'm really allergic to these foods, or if the ones in the US are just genetically modified and Roundup-infected to the point that they're wrecking my body. Note: I do eat 90% organic.
As a Content Strategist, I'd like to be doing client-facing work where I help with brand voice, website/app content, blog articles, overarching brand strategy, experiments/testing, etc. What they have me doing is bullshit SEO content—basically mini research reports (300-400 words) with specific keywords plugged in. No one will read these pieces of content, they're for Google's eyes only. The way I put it, they're whoring my content out to Google to give our clients more domain authority. It's a huge waste of my time and skills. I've voiced my concern and dissatisfaction, yet it's still a big chunk of my working hours each week.
In general, I feel underutilized and undervalued. I'm also not growing as a Content Strategist/ UX Writer since I'm the only one at this company who does what I do—there's no one to learn from. Each day, I come home feeling mentally and emotionally drained, which means instead of having the energy to do the hobbies/activities I love, I resort to watching TV to give my brain/body relief.
Each week that passes, I wonder if the steady paychecks and flexibility are worth it. It feels like I'm wasting my life away, especially since I hardly have the energy and enthusiasm to do things outside of work during the week. Do I get a new job at a different company? Do I do something different entirely? (Like <a href="https://steemit.com/food/@sharingeverybite/guess-what-motherfuckers-it-s-about-to-get-spicy-in-this-bitch"the spice business
Since I was 13, I wanted to move to Portland, Oregon. If I were to do that, my job would dock my pay $10,000 as a "nomad-ing fee" to work remotely. That's about a 25% pay cut—ouch. But let's say I quit my job... should I even move to Portland? Even that I don't know. I'm not so sure the United States is where I should be right now.
