What is this sense of calm I feel?
No urge to throw ideas out into the wilderness of stimuli?
No eager desire to connect?
No rollercoasters, no hyper speed?
Am I just getting older or am I finding my rhythm?
I feel content with my music and where it’s going, I know that I can push all the right buttons on a single night far more powerfully than slamming away at the keyboard night after night.
I still desire to connect through this medium but the urgency is gone. I’ve come to terms with my limited sphere of influence here. I no longer dream of flocks coming to me. I’ll go find them.
I want to explore again.
I’m making a bucket list for the summer. Places I need to go, people I need to see. Venues I want to perform in. I need to be out there in the world, not constantly working through the keyboard. I need to exchange sounds and ideas to living flesh.
It’s not getting any easier but I am getting far more adept at creating and nurturing ideas that will blossom into flowers and little forests.
The last two weeks life was on hold, but we are back now.
This summer will be about connecting with the countryside around Tokyo so I have more places to play and build bridges with.
I want to organize outings to Saitama and Yamanashi and Nagano and Ibaraki and Yamagata. If I can play a show I will. If not I’ll make friends and become familiar with the place.
Exploration is in my blood and helps it flow so I am putting it above everything else other than my music. It may not be all that practical in a world that seems to be falling apart at the seams. It may not seem smart when I need to chip away at my reserves, but it’s more important than almost anything.
This week I will get back my footing and get back to practicing every day in between the work I do to earn a living.
I will keep you updated, I’m sure there will be wonderful things to share!
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