Greedy is Good! 欲張りっていいこと! (ENG/JP)

Sketch by Maho Kagaya

日本語は↓

I wrote this one in Japanese originally so the feeling may be a little different from my usual writing

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“You’re greedy!” a new friend who came to the show said.
“All right, I guess I am ^_,” was all I could answer.

I am greedy.
With an acoustic guitar, I want to resonate with the voices of soil, trees, and water.
With electric guitar and effects, I want to resonate with the sounds of the sky and the universe.

I was talking about music, but life is the same, isn’t it?
Greedy! And that’s fine! I don’t think it’s a bad thing—if there’s no malice, if you think about other people, if you always have the feeling of wanting things to be better. As long as your sense of satisfaction isn’t completely dependent on results.

I think everyone can be kind—to the world, to others, to themselves—and still be greedy!

But this time’s live show… I was too greedy.
I wanted to do everything at once, and it wasn’t very realistic.

All I can think is, “I’ve still got a long way to go.”
There were parts I was extremely satisfied with, but what I wanted to convey didn’t come across well.

For Resonance Experiment #1, the goal was to naturally blend my songs with jams, and I think I passed that one reasonably well.
This time, the goal was to create chaos while still having most of the parts resonate.

The result: even when the inner voices called I + You could hear each other, I felt there were quite a lot of brain-made barriers.
The voice of the Everything part felt hazy and unfocused.

My guitar work and planning weren’t enough.
I started wondering if trying to break down a form that doesn’t even exist yet is meaningless.

It’s tough. Too tough to even put into words.
Why is this so difficult!?

But… it’s difficult because I’m greedy.
I don’t just want everyone to have a good time—I want to light a fire, I want hearts to move. If that’s the goal, then of course it’s hard…

Even knowing that, it still hurts a little.
Thinking, “At this age, I’m still only at this level.”
But I’m not blaming myself. Five years ago, I might have lost confidence and sunk into it for a long time. Now, I just want to improve what can be improved. That’s all.

I don’t care about results.
Even if I want good results, I don’t dwell on them. I only think about what I can do.

I absolutely won’t do things I hate.
I won’t break my own rhythm. I’ll take care of my body.
And while doing that, I’ll properly do what I can do.

I don’t know if I’m saying something strange, but that doesn’t matter either.
I want to keep expressing my true feelings—gently, and with everything I’ve got.

At the very least, Resonance Experiment #2 was an incredibly good mirror.

I had a great time playing with Egu-san!
I’d be happy if we could resonate and experiment again slowly—with music, conversation, ice cream, and coffee!

To the friends who came and the friends who couldn’t make it—thank you so much.
I’m truly grateful 🙏🙏🔥🔥❤️❤️

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