Most of the time, we always tell ourself that everything is ok, and you do not need any help. You able to smile, make jokes and laugh. But in reality, you are drowning and desperately needed help from someone. But you just don't know how to reach out.
From the outside, you looked perfectly normal, you looked the same as anyone else around you. But in the inside, you are struggling, screaming and crying. Constantly overwhelm by the feeling of losing hope, drained energy and losing passion...and that feeling comes and go almost every day.
Trying to do something that you love seems impossible... If before this, playing games able to distract you from thinking negatively, but now it does not have the same effect to you.
There are times when you think the world would be a much better place without you in it. The temptation to quickly end yourself sometimes come to mind. The only thing that stopping you from ending yourself is thinking how will your family survive without you.
Unlike physical injury, depression aren't something that is visible to outside eyes. As men, we are hit harder because men are afraid and embarrassed to admit they are depressed.
Rosmadi Razali
