Self-learning may seem simple for others, but it has been a difficult task for me. I have a long list of things I wanted to learn over time, but I never managed to do so. The first skill I wanted to learn was tailoring, but when I was able to start, due to some constraints, I never found the time to return to it. I also bought a computer mainly because I wanted to learn and perfect graphic design. However, during the process, I felt I wasn't creative enough to be a graphic designer, so I abandoned that dream as well. Last year, I bought another computer because I was serious about learning data analysis. I learned the basics, but I have not gone beyond that ever since.
What I discovered with some of these happening is that I am unable to self-learn, it takes a lot of effort for me to put in to learn, but having no guide, I tend to fail at it. I use to be a bright student during my secondary school era but getting to the university, I wasn't even an average student for the half of my time in school, not until I learnt that I wasn't learning much from the classes because the lecture classes was nothing to write home about, which made me to developed the habit of going for tutorials and engaging other brighter course mates of mine who helped me to explained each topic and areas I did not understand, the outcome was that my results became better and I was able to graduate with a better result.
At the moment, I am trying to self-learn again, studying for an exam I should write by August. Since I don't have anyone close who can teach me or assist me in learning, whenever I don't understand anything, I will have to learn on my own. Not being able to self-learn has made me miss a lot of things. Sometimes I feel it's a lack of self-confidence, not seeing what others see in me, that makes me feel like I cannot teach myself anything. I get a sense of self-deception, and I stop learning just like that. While I was learning graphics using CorelDRAW, I invited my friend from Minna over, who stayed for three days teaching me graphic design, and I had already understood a lot before he left, but a few days after he had left, I was already giving up learning and went back to my normal routine.
Learning on my own has been really difficult for me, and it’s something I so much want to change about myself. I must learn to teach myself things since I have nobody to teach me anything, and nobody really cares about what you make out of yourself; you owe it to yourself. Life is moving very fast and is not waiting for anyone; one ought to move at the same pace to keep up. A promise to myself is that by the end of this year, I should have learnt how to self-learn.
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