"Beautiful but empty" she will shout each time I am acting lazy. She was always throwing words at me that to me, they made me feel less of myself. I kept on brainstorming on how to be free, free from her annoying words. I could remember when she asked me one particular question: "among the 10 virgins in the bible" why do I choose to be among the 5 useless ones"
Photo of me and my grandmother
Hold on! I know you might be wondering who I am referring to, I am talking about my grandmother. And Of course, I am replying to this;
Who in your life inspires you to become the best version of yourself, and how do they do so?
Let's quickly go back to the question "Among the 10 virgins in the bible" why do I choose to be among the 5 useless ones" Hehe! This particular question was a pain in my chest, in fact, it kept on occurring in my dreams 馃槀 I felt as though she was calling me a useless child. It was then that I started working on myself, however, the more I tried the more she was throwing more words and questions to me that at a point, I felt like this woman hates me 馃槱 that notwithstanding, That particular question is the reason I am still thriving to be a better person today.
Photo of me on my grandma's burial
All I ever wanted was to be a bae, was that too much to ask? But no, my grandmother will not allow me. The way she used to mark me was as though I was her only grandchild.
I never understood why she was pushing me, in fact I was always avoiding her not knowing that she was building me, she was pushing me to be the best version of myself. Now I really wish I gave her my listening ears then because, her words keep ringing in ears until now, they keep pushing me not to be useless, at least not among the 5 useless virgins in the bible馃槀
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This is my response to the LOH community contest prompt #197
