Hello everyone, good day ...
" I don't know what's going on with me , everyday even every single moment full of uncertainty... Am I deserve these?? May be....
After waking up this morning I can't remember anything , recently I have noticed I can't remember anything in fact forget everything so easily... Hmmm... Am I getting old or is it just for taking too much stress, yesterday was completely useless, another waste day ... All I remember , was the hangover... Lolll..."
" Days are passing so quickly and I am becoming useless meaningless day by day. Nothing is going good , every single time confusion , pressure of relationship. Oh ya , i forgot to mention , I am in a relationship or is it a relationship ??? Don't know because every single day it's becoming complicated. One of the most irritating fact is people, people's gossip and behind me that's happening , about my broken relationship, it's painful honestly .. So much painful and I am still trying to ran away... LOLLL.. "
" It's getting cold outside as well as my coffee, when I am in much pain I choose you my dear diary , ya I am much more selfish you can say because I choose you when I am broken alone .... Last night I have finished one packet of cigarette , almost 20 cigarettes .. that's a big deal isn't it..."
" I know , diary is the personal thing , where you can write everything , good moments bad moments. My diary is secret , you are secret , but I believe oneday you will remind me everything...May be I will torn this page and through it into dustbin, who knows right? We always wait for that one day , that day when all dreams and wishes will come true , ONEDAY , one single day... "
"Oh , boy everything is getting serious, so intense but meaningless feelings.. Why I still care bother so much, why I still dragging those days when nobody cared about my feelings , made me overwhelmed?? absurd thinking... People are like this , they will blame you every single day, never confess their mistakes in front of you rather than reminds your mistakes... So weird and painful..."
" Now-a -days I stopped crying , I mean there is no meaning of my tears , no body cares. I remember I used to cry every single night , pillows become wet because of tears but that's useless... Am I depress or I am becoming something else?? I think it's better to become something else ... Something is good rather than nothing.."
To be Continued....
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