Apparently, I have a problem, and if I'm being really honest, it's not exactly something that I'm new to. It's something I've always known, but this was definitely the first time someone was squarely pointing it out to me.
Earlier today, one of my neighbors approached me and told me that she had something she wanted to say to me. She had made a joke about me having a spiritual wife who helps me to dictate on what days I should or shouldn't smile.
According to her, there are days when I act all friendly, and I get to talk to everyone and just make them laugh, while there are also days when I act all moody and don't say much. Now this isn't your usual mood swing scenario, as it happens too often. I could be all smiley today and moody for the next two days, then I'm back to being friendly all over again.
When she said this, I laughed a bit because, like I said, this isn't something new to me. As a matter of fact, I've had to lie to someone that I had met them not too long ago, just in case they find me moody the next day; it was because my social battery was dead and all that.
I had to tell them that in advance because we had just met, and she had met the happy version of myself, and I didn't want a situation where the next day comes and she's expecting the happy me, only to meet something different.
The sad thing about this whole thing right now is that I don't do these things on purpose. I just react based on how I'm feeling at the moment, and it's bad. I know it's bad, and I really hope to stop it, but how do you manually lift your mood when you're naturally feeling sad or just moody?
That is the million-dollar question that I believe holds the answer or solution to my problem.
