The last 6 months have been a struggle for me here on steem. When I joined, we had not fully reached the boom so I have been here for the good and the bad. As things began to take a downturn, I stayed. I continued to support the community, to support authors and creators and to support the ecosystem.
Steem is still very young. The ecosystem needs time to mature. And Cryptocurrency needs adoption. I am not frustrated with steem, but the community! Actually, I'm not frustrated with the community, I am frustrated with myself for the choices I made. With all the community effort I put in, well I guess I was expecting too much when I thought the same people would eventually support my project when I launched it. That never happened, yet I continue to run a community league at a loss. Foolish me huh!
I hear people give out that no one supports them and here I am doing the same. But I get it. I understand why. These people once did support the community, but when they launched their own project, they needed their SP and their time to make it work. I have powered up my earnings, and I have purchased more SP. But instead of doing what others have done and stop supporting those not involved and engaged with my project, I made the mistake of continuing to support the general steem community.
Now I am tired, and I also feel sad! Today I start my first power down. The account I am powering down was used to vote for other community accounts and initiatives that supported the general steem user. I’m not powering down to cash out but to consolidate my SP so I can support my own project and I feel sad that it must be this way. Soon, I will be removing the last few delegations too.