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Cu谩nto duele la verdad, cu谩nto arde la raz贸n cuando nos golpea la realidad...como si se tratar谩 de una gran bola de demolici贸n impactando directo en mi cara, dejando heridas profundas, llanto descontrolado y un mar de l谩grimas que en alg煤n punto se sienten como cuchillas en el alma...y me vendo, me ciego tal como muchos hacemos, tapando lo que vemos, sangrando cada vez m谩s pero sin permitirnos decirnos la verdad.
Y es que si, preferimos la demencia a la cordura porque duele estar cuerdo, entender, aprender y sanar duele cada segundo...
How much the truth hurts, how much reason burns when reality hits us...as if it were a big wrecking ball hitting my face, leaving deep wounds, uncontrolled crying and a sea of tears that at some point feel like blades in the soul...and I sell myself, I blind myself as many of us do, covering what we see, bleeding more and more but without allowing us to tell the truth.
And yes, we prefer insanity to sanity because it hurts to be sane, to understand, to learn and to heal hurts every second....
pero es necesario, porque eso nos hace humanos...aunque nos encontremos perdidos, dolidos y rotos por el mundo...seguimos siendo importantes, seguimos existiendo en una realidad indiscutible, formando parte de la vida.
La cual a veces parece conspirar en nuestra contra, d谩ndonos un golpe tras otro y de all铆 vienen esas ganas desesperadas de olvidar, de tapar nuestros sentidos y concentrarnos en algo que nos desconecte del caos.
Pero...驴Qu茅 tan malo es el caos ? 驴Porque le huyes a sentir ? Si eso nos hace crecer, 驴qu茅 intentas ocultar? nadie m谩s puede ver cu谩nto llevas dentro.
but it is necessary, because that makes us human...even if we find ourselves lost, hurt and broken by the world...we are still important, we still exist in an indisputable reality, being part of life.
Which sometimes seems to conspire against us, giving us one blow after another and from there come those desperate desires to forget, to cover our senses and concentrate on something that disconnects us from the chaos.
But... How bad is chaos, why do you run away from feeling? If that makes us grow, what are you trying to hide? no one else can see how much you carry inside.
Cada uno est谩 sumamente concentrado en desconectarse de su propio caos, creeme, casi nadie nota cu谩ntas vendas llevas en el cuerpo...y los que si lo notamos, lejos de juzgar, aplaudimos, porque somos conscientes del dolor que has de sentir para querer unirte a esa ronda de demencia, esa ronda de tapar los sentimientos y quedarnos en silencio.
Y luego arrancamos esa venda, tal como las que colocaba mam谩 en mis heridas de torpeza infantil, de golpe, para que duela menos...驴Duele menos? No, duele igual, pero hay que ver, porque en alg煤n momento hay que enfrentarnos a esa bola de demolici贸n en el rostro.
No s茅 permiten sentir, quedan en la ronda de demencia sin querer salir, 驴 Y t煤 ? Est谩s en la ronda, o como yo, arrancaste esa venda, enfrentando de golpe el dolor, entendiendo que de eso se conforma el mundo.
D铆as de risa, llanto, compa帽铆a, soledad, fr铆o, calor, de eso, podemos ignorar esto pero tarde o temprano viene a ti.
Sin falta debes arrancar esa venda y venir aqu铆, a la realidad que se te presenta, esa que solo t煤 puedes cambiar...que jodido se escucha eso 驴No? Pero es que es la verdad.
Solo tu eres responsable de ti, tu traumas, tus sentimientos, solo tu puedes reponerte de todo lo que tapas y dejas sangrar, eso lo aprend铆 gracias a todas las veces que me toc贸 salir de mi letargo, aprendi que ignorar solo te ayuda a descansar no a superar.
Everyone is extremely focused on disconnecting from their own chaos, believe me, hardly anyone notices how many bandages you have on your body...and those of us who do notice, far from judging, applaud, because we are aware of the pain you must feel to want to join that round of dementia, that round of covering up feelings and remaining silent.
And then we tear off that bandage, just like the ones my mother used to put on my wounds of childish clumsiness, all at once, so that it hurts less... Does it hurt less? No, it hurts just the same, but we have to see, because at some point we have to face that wrecking ball in the face.
I don't know how to let you feel, you remain in the round of dementia without wanting to get out. Are you in the round, or like me, have you torn off that blindfold, suddenly facing the pain, understanding that this is what the world is made of.
Days of laughter, crying, company, loneliness, cold, heat, of that, we can sometimes ignore it but sooner or later it comes to you.
Without fail you must tear off that bandage from And to come here, to the reality that is presented to you, the one that only you can change...that sounds fucked up, doesn't it? But it is the truth.
Only you are responsible for you, your traumas, your feelings, only you can recover from everything you cover and let bleed, I learned that thanks to all the times I had to get out of my lethargy, I learned that ignoring only helps you to rest, not to overcome.
Y as铆 me despido de este mar de pensamiento de madrugada...solo quisiera cerrar diciendo: " se que tal vez puedes estar pasando algo doloroso, algo que te hace querer huir de esa sensaci贸n tan desagradable y si puede que no te conozca...pero creo en que encontrar谩s el momento necesario para arrancar de tu rostro y tu cuerpo las vendas, se que podr谩s reconstruirte de a poquito, porque sentir es de humanos, no te juzgues tan duramente, deja que fluya...deja que todo tome su curso,te mando un abrazo psicol贸gico" 馃珎
And so I say goodbye to this sea of early morning thoughts...I would just like to close by saying: "I know that maybe you may be going through something painful, something that makes you want to run away from that unpleasant feeling and maybe I don't know you.....but I believe that you will find the necessary moment to tear off the bandages from your face and your body, I know that you will be able to rebuild yourself little by little, because feeling is human, don't judge yourself so harshly, let it flow... let everything take its course, I send you a psychological hug" 馃珎
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