Well, I been busy all the time looking for something to earned aside from here. House hold task were also increasing because of the wedding..I'm growing older and it's not easy anymore to do multi tasking left and right.
The other day, I found beautiful sunrise along my way to the grocery.
It was the sunrise last Wednesday.
1aThe flowers I found in the street side.
In the morning yesterday, I decided going to the park and fed the birds. I didn't find flocks of pigeon but I felt so blessed when I went to the last part of the park, pigeons came to me even under my feet. I gladly feeding them until the seeds finished. I was so emotional and God knew what my heart desires and wishes for my life. I was really feeling devastated. I knew how hard and how hurts to pretend to be okay. Judge me whatever but real life and feeling is so disgusting that made disappointment but I tried and tried to fought a good fight to win from the devil crossing along my way. Without faith in God, maybe I was no longer here long time ago. Anxiety and depression because of repeated happening into my life were like a strongest storm slapped on my whole body. But God is here with me. His promises that I been waiting is still my hope to overcome against all odds in my life.
How I tried to change everything but all were coming back . The shadows of my yesterday followed me wherever I go. I'm sorry for being like this all the time but this is the only way, I voice out my real feeling. I'm tired but I need to be stronger for my beloved ones and for myself. I want to be happy even just in my dream.
I know I could make it through one day and be proud of myself and they will give value to whatever I did for theme all. I'm sorry again. I am grateful to this platform, I can open what I am hiding. Please understand me.
That's all for today
@olivia08