It took me quite awhile to make this because, I thought that all I would be writing about is clay tutorials. Though I enjoy doing that, I felt that sharing a part of me sometimes would make everyone relate to me better.
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I am in a stage of my life where I met people who had been advocating for me in a way or another. Not that my journey is a smooth, paved road. On the contrary, its so full of unpredictable events that at one point, I started thinking that my life is a series of unfortunate events ( I borrowed that one from a movie/ kid's book title). I am not going to write that I was brave enough to stand on my own. I felt so lost, battered and completely defeated.
Things started to look up when I met a lady who clearly supported me in every single venture I did. She listened to me, she nurtured me. She pushed me a bit when I get stuck. She accepted and respected all my decisions. She taught me what it truly meant to be a human.
I am currently advocating for a person and her causes now and, I feel so happy being the support this time.I realized this:
To learn how to love, you need to feel what love is. To be merciful, you need to feel mercy first. To be compassionate, you need to know what suffering is.
I have been writing a lot about my culture which almost always require anyone to adhere in a set of rules and norms. I often get judged because I love reading books, watching historical movies, shows which others from my background do not watch. I am happy to do that apart from hearing from very opinionated people that I am doing something wrong. Being strongly advised that this and that should happen to me now.
But I am very stubborn. I believe that I respect myself too much that I just listened and went on my way. I made the right choice. I will not be this happy and at peace with myself if I did listened and followed their strong opinions of me quitting reading, watching my shows and basically being me.
Its not about what others expect or believe to be the proper order. Its what makes you happy. Its what you enjoy. Its what makes you into who you are.
My journey down the road is a bit bumpy right now because, I need to find a way to balance my professional, personal and steemit lives. I do not want to quit any of them. Did I mention that I bought an airclay which takes ages to cure? Did I also mention that I have other issues brewing?
The thing is, I don't care. Down the road, things surely will go wrong ( not being pessimistic here!). But I hope that I can cope up.
It took quite awhile for me to find who and what I am. This is me. My life is always bumpy, busy and very unpredictable. But what makes me happy is the knowledge that whatever life will throw my way, I am being assured of people who can advocate for me. I am at peace because I know who and what I am. I am owning up to that.
I do not usually share what I do these days. But often, when I am alone, I catch myself smiling and feeling this great sense of peace, happiness and relief. I know that I made the right choice. I have the right people I wanted in my life. I found me- Finally!
