So my friend tweeted the other day that he was trying 31 in a couple months and he doesn't know how to feel about it and I could only laugh because this is the same feeling I am struggling with as well. It is a constant mental battle I have to fight everyday.
So what is the problem?
I feel a huge sense of discontent. I keep telling myself that deserve more than I already have and that I am not blame for my predicament because of the choices I have made. However, when I do examine the decisions I have made for the past 10 years, they have been bad decisions per se. I have really been really committed to my craft and given it my best and I have been blessed in many ways than I could have never expected. So is it really a me problem?
It is certainly not my fault that we are currently experiencing one of the worst economic periods in my country; it is certainly not my fault that I became the breadwinner of my family at an early age. There is so much I would have achieved if the circumstances surrounding my life was different. However, as much as I want to be kind to myself I honestly do not accept these excuses anymore. I feel like a victim when accept this narrative. It doesn't empower me to be the best I want, so I don't accept it.
Part of me wants to believe that somehow things will work out fine but I need to see the roadmap or else this would only just be wishfully thinking. I do have a plan but occasionally life gets in the way and that's tough part for me because these decisions never lead to growth. They are often a bandage over current problems, and I often have to forgo future plans to take care of current needs
However, I do remember one of 
On the other hand there is also a part of me that feels ungrateful. I know I people who would give anything to have the life I do. I am literally living my dream. There are people who work twice as much as I do but barely have half of the things I do. If push comes to shove I will be fine atleast. I have some equity, means to start afresh or rebuild. It might not be what I want but it is far from being nothing.
So yeah this is what a quarter-life crisis looks and feels like. It is a constant mental struggle. The only way around it to fill your life meaning and purpose. This is enough to keep you through the periods of doubts and self-loathing. I don't think there is anyone in this life who doesn't struggle with these emotions. So I do feel safe knowing that I am not alone and I have a medium to express these feelings and a means to be usefully to my society/community.
Lastly, I have immerse faith in God and that is also my guiding light. In moments where my words or rationale are not enough I rely on the word of God which surpasses all understand to keep my heart and mind at peace. I am not the most religious person but I do believe in a higher power and that makes life a lot barrier for me.