Sometimes I feel I can’t do anything. Truly I am a useless girl. Every time I disappointed my parents. I have no goal in my life and I never think about what I will do in the future. When someone asks me what are your future plans? Then I say I haven’t thought about it. Really I have no future plans?
But where I go out with friends, what kind of dress I will wear on Eid, I plan everything in advance. The funny thing is, I tell my friends, without planning you can't success in life. But I never plan anything for myself.
I admit, it is very easy to give advice to others but it is very difficult to follow it yourself. I feel I've wasted a lot of time in my life. But from today I will not waste any time.
Actually Today I went to the market. Then I saw little kids selling flowers. They may be 6-7 years old. I was surprised to see them selling flowers at such a young age. I think they are probably doing this because of their financial problems. And they have to constantly struggle to survive.
Even then I got to see a lot of dreams in their eyes. Will they ever be able to fulfill their dreams? Meanwhile, after getting all the facilities, we can't do anything. So we should learn from these kids. How can we do something for our family?
So I have decided that I will concentrate on studies and I’ll think about my future plans. But whenever I do something, it always goes in vain. That's why I don't want to work. I think I’m failing because I want to do a lot of things together.
Now I don't understand what I do. Always I have wanted to work in a multinational company or else I will be an entrepreneur. This time I will focus on any one work. And I hope I will never disappoint my parents.
