Many years have passed and I am still living alone. I have many questions in my mind and I am looking for these answers. I never expected to be able to live such a good life. But I can't forget some of the sad memories of my life. These remind me again and again that I have no existence of my own.
I wanted to live with my family. But my father lives in one place and my mother lives in another. My luck was such that I could not stay with my parents. I was deprived of my family's love, anger, and pride. I noticed my parents were arguing. Then my mother would close the door and start crying. I had no idea what was going on in our family. One day my mother took me to my grandpa's house. We stay there for many days. Dad would call my mom for talking to me. But my mother would not let me talk to my father.
Suddenly mother told me we would never go to see my father. Mom tells me more things I didn't understand but today I can understand the meaning of that word. That word is divorce which destroys a family. I thought my parents loved me. Our family will be a happy family.
About 2-3 months later my father brought me with him. What was happening to me? I feel I was floating in the sea. Gradually my mother's love for me was fading away so she would not tidings about me. After a while, the father was transferred to another place. That's why my father left me with my aunt. I grew up with my father's lineage. But I lost my own identity. It is impossible to imagine the life of a child without parents.
In the evening I would stand by the door and thinking that maybe my parents would come to see me. I wrote Dairy every day. I could not say those words to anyone. And when I saw my cousins having fun with their parents. I felt a little bad.
How long will it continue like this? This time I decided to concentrate on my studies. I also kept myself busy with various activities. Even then some people in society commented on me. They blame my mother for my parents' divorce. But they have no idea about my family. For their thoughts Sometimes negativity prevails in me.
That's true my mom never came here to meet me. My parents only thought about their own interests, they never thought about me. Are they happy in their present life? Or they spend their days remembering some old memories like me? Anyway, I have learned to live alone. In the future, I will be able to live alone.
If it were a nightmare, I would wake up in the morning and see that I was with my family. At that moment No one was happier than me. But the reality is very difficult. We make decisions without thinking. And we don’t understand the consequences.
I have seen many ups and downs in my life. considering everything I am walking on the path of new dreams. And yes, you can never think of happiness without family. Family members may have misunderstandings about something. So, it is not right to make a decision in a hurry. One decision can destroy an entire family. whatever you do, do it thoughtfully.
