So since I've been back home for Thanksgiving, I've been feeling happy to see the family again, but as I said in the previous post, I still get this welling up of sadness because I don't ever like being away from the one person I care about. And it has me thinking about how our brains work and how it just constantly in constant fluctuation of ups and downs and how tiresome it gets. I mean sure you're supposed to have your good with the bad, but goddamn it gets so annoying. I really want to enjoy my time here, but my heart is just in its downer mood right now.
And on top of that, will all the craziness in the world going on, it gets really hard to just see the positive in everybody and easier to just see the evil in people. It gets hard to the point where you can't help but think that people are just out for themselves. And yes, some people are totally out for themselves. But when you start having to question every single relationship you have, it gets so tiresome that you just want to curl up in a ball in your bed and just deal with just your own-self, because at least then you know how you are towards people. But I just hope the rest of my time goes well here...and whoever reads this if you can bring some positive vibes it would be greatly appreciated <3