Everyday there were new issues and new struggles to deal with.
Everyday there was a mammoth amount of factors to try and control or overcome.
It has become like a huge wasp nest that needs to be eradicated, but in order to do so help is needed or danger will be faced.
There is danger as you put your hands out - everytime you reach towards the problem at hand.
The need is there to attend but it is scary.
I wish I could just wipe it away.
I can't do it on my own.
But this massive problem sits in my life and will not leave.
There is a constant fear of what can happen if all of the wasps inside are suddenly let loose.
If a cloud flies over me and consumes me.
The kicking, the biting.
Will it ever end or will I end up dying.
I don't know - I hate to think of what may happen. I just want it all to go.
I want the safety back to once again surround my life...