Light, a bright ray that is always around us. Whether it is sunlight, moonlight, or incandescent light. Light is so important to everyone. Because without light, the world will feel dark and there will be no more spirit to continue living! So am I. I live to reach the bright light in the midst of the dim light of the spirit. As if the energy I had was almost extinct at this time. But, I do not want my spirit to die without meeting him and telling him how much I miss him…
"How long are you going to leave, Ger?"
I kept asking the same thing in the days before he would go to Switzerland for his work. But he did not bother me at all. "Come on Ger, tell me" I did not understand why he never answered. I just asked 'how long will he leave me' or am I wrong to ask like that, considering that at that time I was his lover.
That day also arrived. I feel like I want to cry in his arms for the last time before leaving me for a while.
"Ger, you seriously do not want to know me when you return to Indonesia again?" I asked again.
"Dear Liona, I also do not know when I will return. But all you need to know is that I love you. I will be back for you. With you .. ”
“ But, Ger .. ”
“ Liona, distance is impossible to separate us. And when I return, I will marry you the day after. ”
“ You are crazy. How can I be ready? ”
"I do not need any preparation from you"
"How can it be, Ger. What if when you come back, I turn away? ”
"I know you, Liona."
When he finished saying that, Gerry hugged my body. He also kissed the top of my head in his arms. Somehow, I was so scared at the time.
Day after day, month after month. And continued for almost 3 years. I feel tired. I'm tired of waiting for the uncertain. 'You are so cruel, Gerry. I'm your lover but not the least bit you tell me directly 'I muttered when the twilight light had given a beautiful and exotic impression on this city beach.
"Liona, come on, you can't continue like this, Li" said a friend of mine, Arin.
"I believe Gerry, Rin"
"How can that be? Even 3 years since he left you, he never even tried to contact you. Just a bunch of letters. You will never even know how it sounds when you say the words from the contents of the letter? ” cercananya
Ah yes, Arin really does not like Gerry. So I think saying something like that is very easy for him.
"Liona ..." he called. The tone of despair was clear when he said my name.
As always, I was always waiting for the letter Gerry had written to me. Usually, there will be a letter in the mailbox in front of my house at the turn of the month on the calendar. But until now, I have not found a single letter in there.
My heart is beating faster now. I do not know why. And I decided to stop expecting it…
"Why are you like this, really, Liona?" anxious Arin. I saw in the corner of my eye there was a drop of clear liquid hanging on the tip of his bullet before finally falling from his yard.
It's almost the 4th year since Gerry left me. And for a year now he has not given notice. I'm getting tired. The light of my hope is now almost fading. But I still leave my longing for her. 'Oh Gerry where have you been lately?'
That day the ringing of the mobile phone broke my imagination. An unnamed number called me many times. And as I picked it up, Gerry's voice on the other side was clearly heard asking for my news. My heart leaped with joy at the knowledge that he was going home because his work was done there.
That day, not as usual. Arin who usually doesn't like Gerry immediately offered to take me to pick up Gerry at the airport. "Seriously, Rin do you want?" I asked in disbelief.
"I just do not want to leave you alone with your situation like this, Liona"
"Come on, Rin. I'm fine kok ”
It is not uncommon for the streets of Bali on a holiday like this to be quite quiet. So as to speed up the speed of our vehicles. But I feel my body is getting weaker. And for a moment it got dark !!
"Liona, baby, wake up please. It's me, Gerry. I want to see your beautiful eyes… ”I heard a voice I miss. I think my palms are warm and wet right now. God, why are the eyes so heavy? I also want to see God's brown eyes… my anxiety in my heart.
"It's all because of you, Ger. From the beginning I did not like you near Liona. And because you did not give Liona the news of the last year, Liona lost the spirit of her life. How hard are you to give news? In fact, in Switzerland there are no communication tools or even the paper you use to write a letter that runs out and there is not one left? ”
Now I hear Arin's voice which looks very angry. Oh Rin, why do you have to scold Gerry? I'd rather be mad at you than Gerry.
Now I use all my energy. I do not want to hear more. I want the turn of those who listen to my voice. I gather all the remaining energy even just to open my eyes. And finally ..
"Gerry .. Arin .." I said weakly.
“Lion !!” say they together.
"Hey, you are so beautiful. Your eyes and face do not change much. It 's getting prettier for me "
" stop flirting with me, Ger. You have not changed. Still as before ”I said in a voice that sounded weak and getting slower.
"As promised, I will marry you tomorrow, Liona"
"Don't be crazy, Ger !! Look at Liona's condition, do you think she can get married in a situation like this? ” Arin's anger
"I love her, Rin. I beg you to be willing to be his guardian, because Liona only has you "
Arin did not answer Gerry's request. He just looked at me and stared at me in silence. Clear fluid is now dripping from the current 3 pairs of eyes.
"Gerry, I really do not want to charge your promise. Seeing you by my side right now, that's enough for me. Enough to get rid of all my longing for these 4 years, Ger. And for Arin, I love you very much. Thank you for wanting to be with me for almost 6 years we have been friends. Thank you for giving me the love I have never had since I lost all my family. I love you… "
When I finished the words that were so long, suddenly my breath could not breathe and the light began to dim. One that I will not regret when before my light disappeared, I had two people who always loved me. Have a man who loves me and a friend who I already consider as a sister. Now the light stays biased and runs out as the air blows…
The End
