Isn't it hurts when someone you cared about didn't give a rat ass about you?
Being dishonest had cognitive empathy on their lie.
Their cheerful smile and putting their mask on just to destroy your life.
Being secretly hating you and deceitful.
What should you do?
It can be your loved one, your families, or maybe your friend.
Just kick them off your train and blow the horn.
You know what was the worst betrayed ever? It is when it comes from someone you have trust. They will hurt you just to make themselves feel better. The problem with me was I've been too empathetic and feel sorry for some. I only see their true colors when I am no longer beneficial for their supply.
The empathy I have had causes me numerous feelings that I should overcome in the future.
I feel horrible, regret, self-hatred, disgust, shame and guilt. Because it's too painful to bear.
In fact, they had broken my trust, and it's hard for me to trust another human being that I'll meet in the future.
Their entrusted to me will never be back to the way it was before.
What is betrayal?
In the dictionary, the definition of betrayal is,
“The act of betraying someone or something or the fact of being betrayed: violation of a person trust or confidence, of a moral standard.”
Don't you realize what you may have caused to a person that you have betrayed?
It's their trust and their confidence you have ruined.
Were you happy and glad to make a person feel that way?
I know it's quite difficult to answer when you, yourself, have done it.
What if, “YOU” who have been in that situation?
People may just don't have one betrayal, but many at the same time. I did, and I am always end up being the unlucky one.
The best thing I can do is to get away from these people and drop them out of my life.
Some may have made their first move. I am just one of their supply for their needs and when I'm no longer useful for them, they left.
I had my grieving period. Furthermore, I had gone through a lot of pain.
Not only that, but I had to let it out on my own.
I have cried, I curled up on the bed for some endless night.
I'm suppressing my anger which I'm afraid going to lead me to my depressions.
I have to talk to the people I have trust, I have to meet my therapist. It took me quite some time for the pain to go away, and usually, I took it out on my journal or my writing here.
I'm getting better every day.
I stop lashing out to people that had betrayed me because they are not worthy of my beautiful presence.
All I can say is, they have lost the one person who always have their back when they need them.
They have lost the one who never give up on their goals, and they have lost a person who will love them for their good and bad.
They have lost a person who willingly to make them a better person in their self, their belief, their ability, and their craziness. Furthermore, they have lost a friend, a sister, a partner, and a mother figure.
Not only that, but they may meet someone new, but they're going to be temporally.
The fact here, someone who really loves you and respects you won't go anywhere.
No matter how bad the situation is, they will always be there to overcome the situation together.
We can't control anyone's loyalty, no matter how good you are to them. It doesn't mean they're going to treat you the same as you did.
No matter how much the relationship will be mean to you, it doesn't mean they will value you the same.
It can be your friends, your family or your loved one.
Occasionally, the people you love the most going to turn out to be the person you can trust the least.
If someone has said bad things about you or made up bad stories about you, it means they don't respect you, and they have their own bad agenda.
The worst part of being lied to is when you know you are not worth the truth.
So, I think differently now.
I felt nice when a toxic person stop engaging and stop talking to me. It's like the trash had taken itself out.
I can see clearly now about how people will always show their true colors unintentionally.
It's only the matter of time, so you better pay attention to their behavior.
For me, people can come and go, but I have to stand like a strong pillar.
Nobody can be shaken to me easily now. Not anymore.
This is the biggest lesson I have learned by far, to always keep myself above everything.
I won't get swayed away in my emotions.
If you start to betray me, I'll put a smile on my face and say,
“Bring It On!”.
I can handle anything.
[Edited By Photolab]
