I think I became somewhat callous over the years.
Once I used to write a list of good resolutions for the new year and check every point I was able to accomplish during the next 12 months, but very soon I started cheating with myself, searching for ways to formally satisfy the resolutions even without reaching their substance.
Over the years, the list became more and more unchecked, the same points were recycled for the next year, while I was wondering if I could ever reach those goals. It was just a charade lasting two or three days of January...oh yes, THIS year I swear I will exercise every day until I get fit...THIS year is the good year for my graduation, THIS year I will dedicate myself more to the family, THIS year shall be the last for my stupid fears...all bullshit.
I was losing my confidence in myself, I was indulging in self-pity and incurabile sloth. Eventually, I stopped to feel bad for my failings, and I forgot every good resolution. Who cares? I am what I am (I'm Slotheye the Failorman. Twoot! Twoot!)
But... it's been a couple of years I raised my head, thanks to my friends and to my partner (I'm shy to spend the word "love" but I think that I feel is near to it), and I began to reach for those goals WITHOUT making a list or caring for it.
So, for 2018, I decided to make a new list. Perhaps I'm ready to complete it. It's a small list of small goals, I'm writing them down ad they're coming to my mind:
1- Reading more and writing more; first of all, reading, we wannabe writers and poets are all to much prone to write and forget to read other's writings.
2- Playing more roleplaying games, and talking less about it; since for me it's a job too, I can't lose the touch with the core of the hobby.
3- Taking care of my health. This includes: eating well, sleeping well, doing exercise, laughing a lot, filling myself with beauty; perhaps I could do some dental care, orthopedic visit for my knees, and blood exams.
4- Finding a new job. I have a couple of jobs, none of them is the classic 9 to 5, "safe", job. I don't earn what I need, plain and simple. I need to increase my income, there's no other way to say it. If I don't find a new job, I must invent it.
5- Staying away the more is possible from low self-esteem, shots of anger and negative thought; enjoying life, and the company of those who love me; showing gratitude.
6- A resolution for Steemit: I want to raise up my account value during this year, posting significant contents and reaching more followers, until a value of 1000 $.
7- I don't really know what to write here, but 7 is the perfect number, so I want to end with 7 resolutions...I want to do a travel to a place I never visited before.
Edit: ok, I've re-read it and I don't think anymore this is a small list of small resolutions. That's actually a lot of things, oh my... But I will do it!
I wish you a fantastic new year, fellow Steemians! May you accomplish all your good resolutions, and so may I!