I kind of forget the last time I am even writing down my ideas.
I kind of forget how I was able to spend hours doing nothing.
Yep, just laying in a starfish motion, doing nothing.
I kind of forget some of the things I used to do last few months.
These days, my brain ceaselessly working and can't seem to stop. It is in a good way. Life has been busy, demanding, and fun.
Once again, I am enthusiastic about life and society. I want this and that, I need to be this and that. I want to work hard whilst also playing hard. I want to create this and that. It's all just endless task on my to-do list notes.
Those were all unthinkable the last couple of months. I decided my fate would be a NEET living as a parasite to my mom. The word decided itself made me aware that I have the options. So, again, I venture on a new journey, out of my comfort zone and decided to be a productive person.
After wandering around, I find out I am not in a really bad situation. My life is pretty alright. I have healthy relationship, supportive family, I've managed to see the world and its people not just through 2D but 3D. Though my life has been intense, I learned plenty.
The year is about to end. I learned to love myself and be more patient this year. The rest is all the same because I am still doing the same old mistakes I do since I was able to live on my own. It is really time to change since it has been five years. At times, it can feel like I created my own living hell. Well, this is all for today.
