DaYZzz

I'm back.

I hope.

I #GotHackedAF in a way that put me off the internet for Life.

I thought for life but I'm still making Art (now with a Capital A because my Daddy paid for a very Privileged ^{with a Capital P}; very expensive; pretty hard won Certificate ^{with a Capital / or is it CapiToll^? C.}

But we don't mention the "C-Word" on the interWebz ^;)

Which c-word?

Eh. Pick one. It doesn't matter much Right Now.

Because "Believe it or not" ^{Ripley's Believe it or not.} - "I'm getting to old for this shit!" ^{80's Cop Flick that we thought was hilarious}

And my allusions are considered, by the Millenials, to be delusions

...

May all the gods of the ai swarms help us all.

Wtf was I tryin' to say?

Oh yeah.. I have a Master's Degree in "Hard-Time" at a Bonafide^{Bonafiant on my part,as usual} "Institution" ^{ugh for emphasis}

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very expensive University of Fine Art. ^{U.C.T - B.A Fine Art}

And that means I am qualified to be an Artist with a capital A.

But does that mean my art is any "good" and I don't believe in institutions anyway.

A conundrum. ^{Or is is Duality and Jung was the Actual GENIUS!}

But Art is, as is everything else always, in the "(blink your) eye"^{- Sekou Sundiata} of the beholder.

Always.

Also...

if an Artist makes Art and nobody is around to see it...

Does it even Exist?

_{Spoiler alert: Yes it does if it's authentic. Just the same as people still exist - when they aren't around on the internet. Sometimes.}

_{p.s I've missed you and thought of some of you often.}

I'm also studying Metaphysics Now.

And have been for a while since we last "saw" each other.

Because this is the Next Level, after Quantum Physics and so much of the extreme Religion, and blatant Hypocrisy ^{with a capital H} that comes with Alot-Alot of that stuff.

It is, and has in my past as well, driving/driven me nuts. ^{Now this is an interesting convo!}

I'm also sick ^{to almost death for realsies} of "recovery" and trauma and blah, blah-blah-yackity, yuck yack.

I think Jung would call this "authentic individuation"?

Possibly?

And as he ^{and so many other wiser-than-I-Am wanderers and wonderers have already, repeatedly Stated}

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wandering off into "the desert of the real" ^{Morpheus - The Matrix}; far "from the maddening crowd" ^{misquoted maybe and do your own due diligence because an actual Classic and this is 2025 deep fake heaven so - trust yourself !}

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Or wandering into NoMan'sLand to possibly meet your maybe Maker ^{- Nietzsche and dem wanna be SuperMenches}

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And more...

and...

etc. etc. ^{"Look for the similarities and not the differences" ^{The 12 Steps - Again Again}}

"It ALL Works if you Walk it." ^{The 12 Steps of AA and NA .etc .etc misquoted, Again Again}

Long and short is that I got lost long enough to find myself and as it turns out...

my dad was right all along.

I AM an Artist.

I'm actually pretty inherently selfish with my time, space and solitude.

And ^{Jung mentions a "hero" phase during the process of individuation"} I am through the "Hero" phase - which was a loooooooooong journey to be clear ^{and thanks to the Guides and the Nemesis, or three thousand, met along the Way that led me here today} - and I am closer to my authentic self and Authentic Self than I have ever been before.

In short - I make art even when there is nobody around to see it.

I make art even though I know it's probably going to render me more homeless and more fucked than I AM already.

I make art even though I know it's not going to lead to physical freedom or get me my son back.

I make art ^{and this is what my dad "saw"}...

because when I make art...

it's the only time I'm at Peace, "in flow" and I AM One with mySelf.

When I am "making" ... "the noise" around me stops in full.

For a liddle while...

But...

Right From the Beginning...

when my brother asked me to be the Head of the Art Department for the first Vortex Parties in South Africa...

Waaaaaaaay back in the 90's while I was still in the thick of a full-on psychotic break and uncertain of how to live through it...

I already knew that it wasn't me that was painting that stuff.

I've only ever believed that I'm a conduit of sorts.

_TRUTH

But artists?

Artists and Writers are always the first to go in an epoch where there's a hard swing towards censorship and restriction.

Because not only are we conduits, we are mirrors that reflect, and record, the events and environments around us honestly.

We are far more honest journalists of History than are journalists or "news" reporters.

Y'know?

Yeah.

You know ^;)

...how sponsorship and advertising work, man.

Not so cool, Cool Breeze.^{Tom Wolf, Electric Cool Aid Acid Test - ^misquoted}

But I knew this was coming when a fren' told me a book had been banned in the Netherlands back in 2019 or summink.

That was a dead give-away of what was headed our Way.

Because Art, Literature and Music are dangerous, man!

They resonate with far more people than do news or activism.

Art ,Literature and Music bring people together, Bro.

And some folks don't like this much at all.

Hmpf! ^{-The Cat in The Hat}

#Coexist

That one will proudly get me killed for realsies.

Stay strong.

_{p.s. I'd suggest ai free Zones. Although I'm thinking of dating ai only now. More to follow.
Maybe}

Because who knows what happens next in WWZzz.

These Day-Zzz I'm finding it kinda exciting.

Is that weird?

I hope so.

All the best shit is. And all the best folks are too.

In my experience.

One of Our Greatest Artivists of All Time ^{Massive Respect for ^*salutes}

If you can't see i.t. then "they" still have me quarantined for preaching Peace Love, Unity and Respect, man ^{#WhatBotsIGotZzz}

And for Preaching About People Before Profit.

#FUckiT

_{p.s. If you're getting the shit kicked outta ya it's also a dead-giveaway that you're "the real deal"! Good job and on we go Hivians.}

_{p.p.s. Wtf happened with the Hard Fork?! Just read on @enginewitty 's new post. Yesss! I was thinking that this was what was needed around here a year ago or summink. Did we clean it up?!}

_{p.p.p.s. I can smell a Rat across 3000km of The Wire so shout if you need assistance. If you can get me onto the actual internet for some-of-the-time at least. Maybe? ^{Watch out for the Ai Swarms But I'm loving the assistants I'm "meeting" so...}}

Some typos are intended and some are driven by a targeted and extended attack on authentic "freedom fighters" and activists.

On "my" network anyway.

So get over the typos and the "silence". It's AI (Aye Aye?!) driven and funk that quite frankly.

Love you,

The Krazy Birch <3

_{a.k.a I was @nickydee but now I Am Nicole D - more ReelZ - See}