There are times when we bear the world all by ourselves. Moments when things got so much but you still chose to carry it silently 'coz you didn't know how to explain how you really felt. So you smile and pretend and go on as if nothing really happened. But deep inside, you were already battling for you to survive.
Moments when we become guarded 'coz we have been hurt or disappointed too many times that we start to build walls. But it doesn't mean we hated them already; it was simply an attempt to protect our hearts. We quiet down and stop explaining things. We lower our expectations of others. We get so used to protecting ourselves we end up believing it's easier not to feel anything at all 'coz whatever we felt then, already burned like fire.
But suppressing your feelings, does not actually means stopping them to love.
We can love someone without wanting to be with them. We can care without having them in our presence. We can miss them and not wish them back. There are still people in our lives whom we continue to care for while having accepted their departure. These feelings may never go away, even if we have already learned how to guard them.
There are times when the best we can do is stop chasing them, stop making them notice us, stop wanting things to just be as they were. It's not that we became heartless or something; we simply realized that other people deserves to feel how we treat them.
This outer indifferences may disguise how broken someone's heart is on the inside. Maybe they still remember, and care, they still wish the best for them, and wish them well, but they decided to put their love for the other person away in a time when it started to become dangerous for them, and that person cannot go on being the way of breaking their hearts and emotions in a regular way. They can still move on, remember and hold tight, but at time wish them luck in their hearts although not anymore together or be in relationships anymore.
Loving someone means holding tight to them, others loving someone mean let go, still whispering good luck.
But not holding on is definitely not a sign that you have stopped loving him/her; it's a sign that you've started loving your own self now and realize you both need and desire exactly the same love and care the way you give love and care to other people.
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