These mixed emotions when all must change
unsure what to think
unsure who or what to blame
No medication to poison my soul
for while at least
whilst we plan the next goal
I like being free from this
and the emotion feels real
but its still tainted with illness
not what I really feel
I'll never know that
or I never will tell
and I need to get back
to a stable place now
But which med to choose
which is right for me
the doctors don't care
just textbooks to see
my fear is large now
since the last lot went wrong
I need to take a breath
and be as brave as I can
get back to stable
soldier on with this plan....
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