Greetings!
An opportunity again to write about myself, especially the experiences I have had and my lifestyle in general, which often appear nonsensical most times馃.
Talking about ideas and decisions I had and wished I made that could have changed my life, the only one that comes to my mind is becoming a pastor. Even till today, I still think I could have excelled in that field with a very large audience. Maybe I could have also been given the title of "Papa," with many people answerable to me.
Back then, I was so committed to church activities and very much privileged to do a lot of those things that clergies do. During those processes, I was taken as one of them. Yes, I was referred to as one of the clergies by the people, and even by myself, I saw myself in that line. Meanwhile, I was just enjoying myself with God's work and not thinking far or raising shoulders due to those privileges.
To be very honest, during those days, miracles, I mean answered prayers, were happening. That鈥檚 one of the things that struck my idea of becoming a pastor because that field is basically seen as, As long as you can pray, and God answers, and you can share the Word of God, then you're good to go. This was coupled with how those clergies advised me to go into ministry because they thought or saw or felt I would excel. The advice was too much, I must say, and I almost bought into it. But no, although my head was calm to the things of God, it wasn鈥檛 ready to follow that path in life.
One main reason I didn鈥檛 get involved in ministerial activities when I moved to school was because of this. I just did my ushering duties and never got closer to any opportunity that would make them see me as a pastor. In fact, I didn鈥檛 attend home fellowship because I didn鈥檛 want to get involved, in order to dodge such things completely.
It was worse during my NYSC because I wanted to live a very free life, count the days to go to church like a normal average youth in Nigeria. But no, I was fully arrested by the church there and the Corpers fellowship organization. I worked all through my NYSC days as a pastor. When I was rounding up, my pastor and one very committed deacon in the church called me and advised me to go into ministry, and they were even willing to foot the bills. Omo! I almost fell for the advice. In fact, my mind was totally convinced, especially with the way it鈥檚 hard to get a job as a young graduate in Nigeria.
In all these, I fell back to my original refusal state and kicked away the thought.
Although I鈥檓 catching up with life, I鈥檓 not yet fully balanced鈥攊f there鈥檚 even such a thing in life. Each time I think of those moments, I don鈥檛 feel regret, to be honest, because I have never imagined myself in that field.
But what if I had taken that path? Maybe I would have blown up and been swimming in money. After all, the church these days is nothing but an innovative business system.
Thanks for reading.
This is my entry to Hivenaija prompt of the week
Photos used are mine
