Greetings, beautiful people!
Are you sure you're all doing well? Just be fine✌️.
There was a time in my life that I almost stopped going to church because the girl I was wooing then was taunting my life with her presence in church, and I was an usher...
How I met this girl...
One of the most enjoyable parts of being an usher in a church is that we get to know everyone and have the choice of going for the pretty ones if we want to shoot shots. You don't expect me to go for the ugly ones when I'm always seeing angels. The Lord will not forgive me, na. This is one of the main reasons it's hard to see a known usher get married to a 'worwor lady'(ugly lady), or have you seen?🤧
This girl, Gift, was a regular member of the church and she always comes to my direction for me to offer her seat. I don't know how it happens always because our church is very big and has different seating sections...I just concluded that either she's crushing on me or maybe God was connecting us.🙄
I noticed her and began falling for her, especially the way she smiles at me while I'm beckoning her to come closer to the seat I'm offering. I just liked everything about her—her smile, her chocolate skin, and her low haircut...she doesn't make hair, easy peasy.😎
One thing led to another; I approached her one day, we exchanged numbers, I dropped my shots along the line, and she kicked them back by saying she's in a relationship already😢.
"I like you too, but I'm in a relationship, Let's just be friends and see how it goes."
She purposely pushed me into the friend zone, and I was happy too because he who wants to dance must be ready to dance from the clapping beats.
To be honest, we became very close, and people assumed we were dating but there was nothing like that. We were just the best of friends, and I was acting as her boyfriend in town because her guy lives in another city and visits once in a while.
I can't count the number of times I asked this girl to scatter her relationship with her guy and accept to be my babe since our bonding is just too good, but she refused...
"Kingsley, it won't be fair if I break up with him; he's been so good and supportive to me."
After constantly hearing this line from her, I'd give up and stop pressurizing.
Anytime her guy visits
Whenever her guy visits, she will stay off coming to my place just to give full attention to her guy, and my mind will become restless. At night, I would be thinking and assuming how they're doing lovey-dovey and possibly 'going down'.😭😭😭
The worst scenario comes when a friend of mine who lives in her lodge calls on phone to give me info on their movements.
Efe would call and say things like, "Kingsley, she and the guy just entered inside and locked door... I'm hearing funny sounds from the room" my mind start beating hard upon hearing this. Efe was crazy!🤣
There was a particular Sunday, I was in church doing my ushering work at the position I was posted, then I saw this girl and the guy walked in; my mind flared up immediately. I felt like leaving my duty post, but I couldn't because it wouldn't make sense. To worsen the situation, they walked in my direction to be offered seat, and I manly did my work and offered them one.
When we've all sat down during the sermon, mehn!, I couldn't concentrate because my eyes were fixed on them as they were gisting, exchanging notes, bibles, and pens...they did all the lovebirds stuff but thank God they did kissed because I would have blown up. They were seated in the row in front of me.
I was just praying for a quick close of service because the scene was unbearable for me.
You know that song by Brick & Lace, "Love is wicked?" They said the real truth.
Love is not just wicked, it's stupid too.
You know what? I've outgrown that stage of feelings.
But you can't trust feelings too because....(feel free to complete 🥱)
Thanks for reading