Just like 2024, I think I can confidently say I had a very good 2025, and believe me, living in Venezuela, I have every reason to feel defeated and overwhelmed, but I don't. More than a year ago, I said "no more," and I've stuck to that decision. Everything has changed since then; but now that I see the weekend topics that Galenkp is suggesting, the second one is the one that catches my attention the most, mainly because I had so many reasons to be happy, and it's been difficult for me to list the things that bothered me the most. In the end, the most obvious answer is myself; when I get upset, it's with myself for still not knowing how to deal with certain things, but all of this is thanks to the idiots, who are always around...
I've never been a strong-willed person; it seems that self-respect is a topic that only started to matter to me a couple of years ago, when I stopped putting everyone else before myself. Obviously, because of this, I had a lot of toxic, controlling people around me who wore the mask of friendship to stay in my life and take advantage of me. I started to identify these kinds of people, and I began to remove them from my life, and boy, did that hurt. I didn't even have to do anything to push them away; I just started respecting myself, and they left on their own. It even seems like it's happening again right now with someone I care about deeply, but who I'm also very aware is one of them. So I can conclude that what has bothered me most about 2025 is knowing that I still can't free myself from them without feeling bad, without overthinking and stressing myself out, knowing that those idiots are perfectly content somewhere in the world.
And what made me happy in 2025?... Well, the same decision I made to change my life for the better and stop feeling bad, stop procrastinating, and stop putting everyone else before myself. This year, something happened that had been a dream for a long time: people started taking me seriously, and the funny thing is, I still think other people are better than me, but they're still calling me. So many years of doing things right have paid off, and just when I stopped actively seeking opportunities and focused only on myself and my own things, regardless of what anyone else thought, my silence became the most powerful statement I could make. I've been called for important music recordings and chosen for special events.
For those who follow me and those who actually read my posts on Hive, you know it's no secret how happy I was to be chosen for the concerts in Rome. I was one of 22 singers selected out of 90, and I'm not going to say it's because I'm better than the others, but I'm not going to say it was just luck either; it was hard work, perseverance, pushing myself to be better every day, maintaining a positive and optimistic mindset, and most importantly, staying true to what I believe in and what I love. Nothing happens by chance, even if we don't see it or understand it at the time.
For me, the worst moment of the year has been the arrival of December. The country is a mess politically and economically, even Hive, which is an important source of income and a fundamental part of my daily life, has been affected. And yes, I've felt down. It seems like a friend wants to leave my life, and since my father passed away, I've completely lost my connection to the Christmas season. But it was a good year, a year that made me happy, and a year where I grew emotionally, professionally, and spiritually. Perhaps another thing that has bothered me lately is arriving in December overweight. It's clear that despite all the hiking and dieting, I haven't made enough progress in that area, and I hope to improve from now on, so that when I reflect at the end of 2026, I'll be sitting here in front of my laptop a few pounds lighter 😅
