August has turned out to be a stranger month than I planned for myself. My girl is right to tell me that we have no control over our days and that it is useless to organize so much, especially when other people are part of your days, of your environment. I recently told in a post that this August is my first vacation in a year and a half without rest, and that by the way it has been the worst year of my life. Even so I have managed to keep myself in all my activities, but the price has been expensive, with the arrival of the vacations I also reached the mental collapse.
In my madness I planned a whole itinerary for this month, and no day of the agenda I had planned to rest, but a series of activities in my hometown that would make me forget the stress, problems and routines of the capital city.... I definitely just changed the scenery, and for those who read my last post, my own kitty who stopped my busy schedule when she bit me on Thursday last week. I never imagined a cat bite could wreak so much havoc, let alone from a house cat. I was forced to sit, rest, relax and even turn down my interaction on Hive for the last week. I'm still writing this post and I'm still feeling pain in my hand, although the swelling has gone down.
Crispin in 2020, when he was my Doctor in my surgery recovery.
Good things and bad things happen when one is forced to rest. The best thing is to ratify once again that my girl Jhoxiris is my faithful companion. We don't think alike, we are different people, and that makes me value our relationship even more, because we have never abandoned each other and we have learned to love and understand each other. I don't know how many times she has seen me cry in the last year, that was not the man I introduced her to, but there have been too many kicks that life has given me and she has been a witness in each of those moments.
The bad thing is that in the silence of my house and in the search for that peace, even if it is forced by medical rest, life continues to manifest the worst it has through people. I know that I have always expressed my problems a lot, but it is because I think I have many friends and I really need to unburden myself in the strong moments, but it is different from what people do, people have problems and I feel that they need me to be part of them. The more I try to get away from unpleasant situations the more they haunt me, even though it has nothing to do with that.
Maybe you think I'm exaggerating, but I no longer care what people think, in fact again what I want is to vent, but now I have chosen my blog instead of people, it's healthier. Jhoxiris has been able to confirm that everything I say is true, and even my brother has noticed. I don't want to give weight to the situation that happened to me with the cat, because it was something silly, but the fact is that it happened, and things like this happen to me very often, almost daily. I decided to spend the month of August without WhatsApp and lower the visit to other social networks. It has worked quite well for me, but the person who wants to bother you still finds a way to get to you.
What is true is that August has been the month of reflection that I needed so much, and great advice has come to me through my wife, who has one of the personalities that I admire most in the world. I wanted to go back to my hometown and pretend that everything remains the same, but it turns out that people change, things change, I have changed a lot this hard year where even my dad disappeared from the physical plane, why wouldn't I change the rest.... So I must learn to accept, evolve and finish landing in this new professional era that comes for me from September, because I will have a lot of work.
In conclusion for myself, life is a constant change. I am happy to discover that professionally I am doing better and better. I am sad to discover that the most basic, people who have been part of my life seem to have moved on without me, and perhaps in a way that I do not like very much, but I have to accept and focus on those who want to be. My love is real, if someone wants to come back to me, I am sure they will find me, but I will respect everyone's time and search, just as I intend for everyone to respect my growth process as well...