I have yet to properly introduce myself to this community, but here's part of my story and where I'm currently at:
All my life I’ve been hiding behind my parents. Since my mama left when I was 13 years, I’ve been particularly hiding behind my papa. I always thought of it more like I was leaning on him, but it truth I’ve been hiding.
Being that my papa was quite successful (which my mama is too) and had great influence in the whole community, I felt much more comfortable hiding out. It was always this feeling of I could turn to him if and when I needed help or just someone that would listen. Most of the times he’d find a solution and he would ALWAYS make me laugh on top of it. It’s what most parents do. They always work on providing support for their children.
In truth, I may have been leaning on him, but mostly I’ve been hiding behind him. Allowing his light to shine for me. All. My. Life.
Why haven’t I allowed my own light to shine? I’ve always known I had the strength to do it. There even been times my papa’s successful friends have tried to push me. The reason I have allowed myself to hide out is simply because of fear of the unknown. I then believed I could never be as good as them. So much so that I didn’t even try it out. On top of that, I have been quite comfortable hiding out.
Thing is, I’ve missed out. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had great opportunities in life that I DID take and I do appreciate it all, but there has also been opportunities I’ve missed out on living in my comfort zone. Hiding.
This insight on myself is providing an enormous relief and in honesty I’m struggling to put words to it.
So here I am.
Hello world, this is me calling :) Ready to truly adventure, ready to explore, ready to get to know you and about the many more things out there in life.
Scared? Absolutely. A bit at least. Yet much more thrilling to get to know the real me, what it is she wants to do, and more so to find out what she can accomplish. Having the courage to allow me to be me. Everything is getting better.
