The room is lit by a single desk lamp and glow of the computer while a fire roars in the background and the wind blows like the whirl and whine of a jet engine on this rainy Sunday morning. All nine dogs are feeling the same cozy warm energy and have drifted back to sleep now that their bellies are full.
I love mornings like this. I feel at peace.
Maybe today is the day. The energy of the morning has me feeling open. Ready to strip away my vulnerabilities and share myself.
I have written and rewritten these thoughts over and over again in my head. Too chicken to actually write them out for my friends and family to read and tear apart because they don't agree and/or aren't truly interested in a different perspective. Don't get me wrong, I am not a total black sheep but to some that mean most, I feel their sympathy bestowed upon me and that is painful. Poor lost and mislead Jen.
Well, as they say, not guts no glory. So, here goes...
I am a #walkaway -er. I grew up in a Democratic household and never thought too much about it. When I was able to vote I followed the lead of my parents because they are good people and I respect their values. I also didn't care enough to try to figure out which politicians claims were lies and which weren't. It was more important to chase boys and rescue dogs.
Not sure why, but this feels like some sort of a confession. It would be much easier talk about my interests in opossums, praying mantis, rescue dogs, crystals, orbs, essential oils and spirit guides, then share about politics. Politics seems more personal since the world is so very cruel and judgmental about the matter.
I voted for Barack Obama twice and even for Hilary. WOW! That was really hard to admit! I felt the county would be a laughing stock to the rest of the world with Trump as president.
COVID changed that.
It was upsetting, having grown up in a household that preached "Buy American" and marrying into a family that held the same beliefs and pride of being an American, that American citizens were offended by the virus being referred to as the China Virus. Thoughts of manufacturing coming back to the United States and our nation emerging stronger as positive outcomes to the 2020 nightmare wilted away. I began to see that the business man running our country may truly be our only hope of that happening because our nation really didn't learn anything from this experience.
Mid-July is when I realized something wasn't quite right and began to wake up. From the start, I watched the daily Local and Presidential COVID briefings. I wanted to know what we were allowed to do and not do. Mid-July our President was going to return to holding a daily press conference. I tuned into my chosen station, ABC, and waited for it to start at 2:00 PM. It didn't start. I gave ABC the benefit of the doubt for several days and the briefing wasn't aired. I must have had the date/time wrong. I knew briefing were going on. I got notifications on my phone via Facebook that told me so and eventually watched them there before finding Fox at least felt they were worth airing.
The medias disdain and blatant disrespect during the press conference was undeniable. Yes, our President didn't rise above and he engaged them in the manor they engaged him. But why wasn't ABC broadcasting our leaders briefings? Why was his information being withheld? What didn't they want us to know?
That was my aha moment. I then watch "Out of the Shadows" and "Fall Cabal" and was changed further.
Question EVERYTHING!
I learned of things like Operation Mockingbird, False Flags, Operation Paperclip, MK Ultra, Pizzagate, the Cabal and the extent to which human trafficking happens and who is behind it and how absolutely evil those involved are.
Politics are not really my wheel house but honestly, integrity and doing what is right are. I know it will take more time for some to wake up. We all wake up when we are meant too. I repeatedly say "I wish I had known sooner" but understand that my soul wasn't ready for it any sooner.
There is no such thing as coincidence. If you are reading this you needed some piece of it just as I needed to share it. I am grateful for the likeminded souls who are helping me maintain strength and I them through these tumultuous times.
Thank you to 
Be kind and have an open mind!
