My failures have taken me to unexpected places, where I have gained great victories.
There was a time when I wanted to learn everything from others. I read books. I crossed my internal storms looking for answers outside.And that was good. Because every human being woman or man needs references before entering the forest of himself.
But there comes a silent and fierce moment when one gets tired of repeating other people's voices. That's when the true path to unlearning begins, and by doing so we don't forget the old obediences, it's like taking layers off the onion, it's even like stopping talking from inherited phrases and starting to breathe from the truth itself.
This learning includes something essential: not all knowledge is healthy and not everything we learn heals us because there is knowledge that adorns the ego but moves away from the spirit. There are teachings that fill the head and empty the heart.
I've learned to keep quiet more often, to ask for permission to feel what I feel and to look more closely at which part of me constantly needs approval.
There's still a scared little girl living there... It will be...? For now I better take off the mask and the costume, that makes me a real person who appreciates the simple, not so much the special, and to sit alone without having to be distracted.
I am my best remedy and when the soul speaks low. I honor my teachers, but I do not live kneeling before any.
Maybe eternity starts exactly there when we stop running away from ourselves. Nowadays I observe little tolerance to frustration, anxiety, depression and personality disorders, which go unnoticed by the common eye.
We cling to what changes, to what does not belong to us, to what cannot stay, ... and then it hurts us when life does its job: to move, to transform, to close cycles.
Then the fruit of attachment comes, which are tears, that is, fear disguised as love, because attachment is not love.To love is to hold with open hands.
It is to allow what is, to be, and what is leaving, to leave.And that when we truly let go, what is for us, we find the way back. Sometimes our body is the stage where all our unresolved conflicts are projected. And sometimes, "growing up" means saying that there are no opportunities that do not vibrate with our purpose.
There are changes that seem small at first... a new mindset, a different decision or just stop settling for the same old thing. But many times our whole life begins to move there. We must force ourselves to find ourselves by ourselves, and not everything has to be amended.
Janitze.🌷❣️
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